Things to Say Out Loud...

You're Back

So you're here now. You've been around for a while but i hadn't seen you properly until the other day.
You were next to me. Close enough to touch and hold.
You didn't look at me and so i tried not to look at you.
You didn't talk to me or wave at me. We didn't communicate but deep down i know you watched me from across the room, the same way i watched you; secretly, admiringly for how much you've changed.
I wasn't going to speak to you first, i couldn't. It was like my mouth was taped and my hands were tied. I couldn't move to connect the dots.
I missed you.
For some reason, i know you missed me too. The same way i knew when you were angry and sad and lonely and skeptical. I know how you think: i know you like you know me.
I know you've missed me too.
You're not going to admit that you've thought of me whilst you've been out with her.
You're not going to admit you regret leaving me.
You're not going to admit to comparing me.
You're not going to admit to missing me.
Thats okay though, because i don't know if i'll ever admit the same things to you.
You left to give me the best. You cared about me and undeniably loved me.
Before that, you left and came back too. We've always had a thing and i think we always will.
Im not asking for you back but I'm saying i miss you. I miss you being around and i miss us.
All I'm saying is that, if you want me back in your life i'll be here wanting you too.
I miss you

-For M.D