Friend Zone

Denying

So, here's the second chapter, again it's short, but at least something to read! Enjoy!

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Chapter 2 - Denying

I want to be with him. That is one thing I know, and I want to fall in love with him. That the second thing I know. The third thing I know, is that I have to realistic, Ulrich doesn't want to be with me. We are friends that's it. What if he feels the same way as I do, but don't have the guts to tell me. Well, that would be the best thing that had ever happen to me. But lets be realistic again. We have been friends for like five years, and he should by then have told me something, or at least given me some clue or sign that he likes me. But he haven't and there it is. The best thing I can do is to deny everything and hope for the best. 

I guess he haven't understood it yet, and that a good thing. That means that I can pretend like nothing, and live my life as usual. But when I look into his eyes and that feeling comes, I can't do anything about it. I really wants to tell him. But I know that he would step back and we would fell apart, and I would loose my bestfriend. So, I guess I should pretend like nothing. 

Ulrich called me yesterday, and thar was the moment I changed my mind about everything I've thought earlier. 

- Hey Sara! Waddup?

At that moment my heart stared bumping, for no reason, but it did. 

- Ulrich, hey! Long time no see!

- You don't say! It's been forever since we talked. I really miss you Sara, you probably don't believe me when I say that work isn't the same without you! 

I can't believe he just said that. Once in a while he says that with a sarcastic voice, but this time I think he meant it. I didn't know what to answear, so I just started laughing and after an awkward silence we hung up and again stared smiling like a weirdo as I usually do. 

That conversation changed my mind about the whole situation. I really think it could be something between us, but again. What if he just joked or said it with a sarcastic voice I didn't hear. It would be so embarrased if I told him everything and not get any respond. I guess I should not tell him. At least not yet.