Can We Start Again?

Min Yoongi

You collapse to the floor after slamming the door. Tears streamed down your cheeks as your body was shaking from your sobbing. How did this happen? How could he do this to you after you've been together for 5 years?

“It hurts... it hurts so much...” You said as you leaned your forehead against the door clinching your chest.

You force yourself to stand on shaking legs and make your way to your room. When you climb into bed. Curling up into a ball you remember your conversation with Yoongi just a few minutes ago before you chased him out of your apartment.

He had just came back from his tour and you were so happy to see him again. When you opened the door you threw yourself into his arms. Nuzzling his neck as you told him how much you missed him. Only to have him gently remove your arms from his neck with shaking hands.

“Y/N, we need to talk...” he'd sigh as he refused to meet your gaze.

You instantly felt your body go cold as he took you by the hand and led you to the couch. He made sure you sat down before crouching in front of you still holding your hand. He seemed unusually nervous as he began to speak. Voice wavering slightly.

“Y/N, I... I slept with someone else....” He kept looking at your hand. Afraid to look at you.

He what...? You felt as if he had just punched you in the ribs. It became hard to breathe and before you knew it. Tears silently fell from your eyes as you looked down at him. He must have been unable to take the fact you hadn't spoken because he quickly looked up and began to speak again.

“Y/N, I'm so sor-” his voice trailed off as he seen your tears.

He bit down on his lips and blinked several times to fight back his own tears. Yoongi wasn't one to cry easily but knowing he hurt you was killing him. He knew you wouldn't want him after what he did but a small part of him wished you would.

“Damn it..” He cursed as he started to wipe your tears away. “I'm such a dick. I know you probably won't be able to forgive me, but that doesn't mean I won't fight to earn your trust again, I don't care how long it takes. I'll prove I really do love you.”

He waited for your reply as he stroked your cheek. After a few minutes you finally caught your breath and managed to speak.

“Get out...” You whispered.

His face contoured in sadness as he looked at you.

“Y/N, please... just give-” He began to beg.

“Get out.” You repeated yourself a little louder as you felt the pain sinking in.

“Y/N, just give me one more chance... I promise I'll-” You quickly cut him off as you jumped to your feet causing him to fall back on his behind.

“I said get out!” He looked up at you with a pained expression. You couldn't look at him anymore. Afraid you'd give in. Maybe tomorrow you could think rationally but right now you feared you'd say something you would regret.

You leaned down and grabbed his wrist. Pulling him to his feet and towards the door. You kept your lips clamped shut in an attempt to stop the sobs as your tears continued to fall. When you reached the door, you threw it open and shoved him out before slamming it shut again.

Now you lay in bed sobbing uncontrollably until you passed out.

You have avoided his calls and messages for 3 weeks now. Still, unable to find it in your heart to forgive him. You finally decided to watch one of their interviews to see how they were doing. To see if he was hurting as much as you....

When the camera panned to Yoongi you saw dark circles under his eyes that makeup couldn't seem to hide. He seemed uninterested in the conversation as he bit down on his lips and pouted. Seeing him like that made your heartache. You hated to see him look defeated. He was always so confident. Even if he hurt you, you couldn't stand to see him that way... you started to turn off the TV when the interviewer addressed him.

“Suga? You seem down. Are you alright?”

He didn't seem to hear him at first so Taehyung nudged him. Yoongi quickly looked at the interviewer.

“I'm sorry. What did you say?”

“Well, you seem kinda down. It reminded me of a question I've seen all over the Internet. People keep asking 'why is oppa so sad? Who hurt my oppa?' Etc. So do you think you could give an answer to these worried fans?”

The members looked at him worried about what he would say. Yoongi had kept your relationship a secret for 5 years. Yoongi thought for a minute before speaking.

“The truth is... I've been dating this amazing girl for 5 years now... well I was dating her but I... I screwed up.. I won't blame it on alcohol because that's the cheapest excuse ever... I was just stupid. I cheated on her and broke her heart...”

Everyone went silent as they looked at him. Yoongi decided to look at the camera before speaking again.

“Y/N, you were insecure through our entire relationship. You thought I was ashamed of you but you would never question why I kept us a secret. I did it because I wanted to keep you all to myself. I didn't want my fans being mean to you when they don't even know you. I wanted to keep you from being hurt but I hurt you instead... you wouldn't listen to me when I tried to explain because you were shocked and hurt. I understand that. I don't blame you for kicking me out of your apartment. I mean... you always sat at home and waited for me. When I would come home. You'd shower me with affection. So when I stopped you from hugging me and told you I cheated... I knew you'd never forgive me... even if I said it was a one time mistake and that I'd make it up to you... I won't give up though. I love you with all my heart. I'll continue to make it up to you even if you won't see me. You'll be in every song I write. So I hope you'll give me one phone call... just one... let me hear your beautiful voice...” Yoongis eyes were shining with tears as everyone sat quietly wiping their own tears.

“Wow.. That... that was some confession... any fan that has something bad to say after seeing you bare your heart like that is crazy.”

Unable to watch anymore you quickly turn off the TV and cover your mouth as you cry. You couldn't take it anymore. You had to be in his arms. You had to feel his breath against your hair as he buried is face in your neck. You quickly pick up your phone and dialed his number. It only took 2 rings for him to answer.

“Y/N! Thank god... I-” You quickly cut him off.

“Yoongi.... I forgive you... so please... please come over...” You sobbed. You heard him sigh in relief.

“I'm on my way now. Wait for me, baby girl.”

After 40 minutes there was a frantic knock on your door. Hoping it was Yoongi you raced to the door and threw it up.

There he was.

The only man who could make your heart leap with joy or clinch in pain. The only man you ever wanted.

As soon as he looked at you he stepped forward and crashed his lips into yours. His kiss was passionate, needy. He kicked the door shut behind him as he lifted you up by your hips. You wrapped your arms and legs around him as you deepened the kiss. Slipping your tongue in his mouth and tangling it with his. He skillfully carried you to the bedroom, laying you down on the bed. He began to shower you with sweet kisses as he took his time undressing you and himself. He wanted to prove how much he loved you.

“I can't believe you thought I didn't care about you...” hurt evident in his voice. “I'm a dick. I know... I'm stupid... but I'll never do it again. Let me prove just how much I care about you.” He said as he planted a soft kiss on your forehead.

The End

Notes: I used bulletproofwhalien's BTS Reactions (with her permission) for BTS Cheats and Make up Sex in this one. Make sure to check out her tumblr for more.