Rejected

chapter 8

carsons pov

i know its hard for her to be able to work around that night and try to stay away from physical contact since that night and i understand if she doesnt move on from that night but i honestl yjust wish that i coul dhave done something to save her. the reason  i was so protective over ash with kyle i sbeacuse they are complete opposites. kyles your average man whore and ashleys your average nerd they are polour opposites. i think kyles using her but then when he talks about her and looks at her and all that jazz he has adoration in his eyes and its like hes eyeraping her but you know everyone can mask that over by just a little effort. 

ashleys pov

i know he knows that its hard for me to go through my life reliving that nightmare that comes and eats me whole everyday but he also knows that i dont want to have to try to keep my breathing level and able to not have a panic attack. the sad part is isthat no matter how hard i try i still cant acheive that cause my brain justs goes completly blank and i cant think about anything because i only remember the last ten years of my life. Since the day of the crash when i was seven i havent been able to have physical contact with people. why? well because i was physically and mentally paralized for three straight years. thats why for almost all of my life everyone who has asked me out i rejected them.one because i couldnt function without going completly numb and not knowing what was even happening. 

kyles pov 

i dont know exactly what happened that night all i know i sthat some bad thing happened and im the first person she hasnt rejected and why she wouldnt reject me asspecially after the rep that i set for my self at this hell hole.i know carson thinks im going to take advantage of her but i would never ever think about doing that to her and he can deny the fact but i know the truth im not stupid i might be dumb but im not stupid.

there is a filler chapter and a breif explanation on ashleys life and what happened