if you are reading this that means i finally got the balls to kill myself, i always chicken out before i do it. I always think what if i dont succeed and my father beats me for trying to kill myself. Here lately things were getting better I had Tyler he keep me strong, everyday i would talk to him and he would make me smile, he would make things better. Then he changed, He started saying i was a fake, and that he was going to leave. I couldn't take that he was all i had so I deleted. Then he said he still loved me and to make another account. I did just that. He was acting weird after i made the account. I don't know i just got upset and said things i shouldn't have. The only reason i held on was because of him and now he hates me.I have nothing to live for anymore. Amanda please stay strong for me and be happy, please don't be upset forever. To all my real friends, i'm sorry for leaving you but it' whats best...goodbye..I love you guys forever and ever Luke
