Left you behind

The planning begins

This is my first fanfic any tips comment & vote please !

Journal Entry 1
May 4

Everyone in Evanston high seems to like me but i cant seem to find the person they like ,the person they admire. Im nothing , my parents are full of lies . Each-day i find out a truth.A truth that kills me little by little each day. I want to kill my self . I don't belong on this planet, it seems too good for me .Before i go I'm going to make certain people suffer in guilt the same way i suffered almost 18 years.

-Niall Horan

Chapter 1
The Planning Begins

Its Monday morning , today didn't seem like any other day . Today was the day i was going to come up with a plan. I get ready to come downstairs to eat breakfast, but i hear my parents arguing again.

I passed through them trying not to listen to a word they said, but it was impossible to not hear them. I let the thoughts escape my head. I grabbed my car keys and got out the front door.

I was starving , so i decided to go to Dunking Donuts . When i got there i saw a girl . She had pale skin , blue eyes , light brown hair ,and she was beautiful. Right then it hit me, i knew that girl . Her name was Casey Miller, i had a crush on her .I had Calculus with her 6th period .We used to have play dates when we were 6 years old, i doubt she even remembers me. I doubt anyone will remember me after I'm no longer here. I ordered my coffee and a couple doughnuts, i went back to my car and drove off.

I was heading to school , but i decided to go somewhere else , a place to think ,a place were i can be free from all the lies surrounding me. At school it was just a bunch of more lies .

I was popular , i talked to everyone, i was well-known. I had everything there, but i hated that people only liked me because of my popularity.I feel pity for the girls that lessen them selves just to talk to me. I'm just an ordinary guy nothing special. i love a girl that can value herself as a person.

Im half way to Crest Woods Park when i noticed i have missed calls and texts. I saw them but i turned my phone off and i didn't reply. I parked my car and got out , i sat in front of the tree with my journal . I was just staring at the empty park ,it was quiet and peaceful, it was like i was in heaven already. I started jotting down the people involved . In total i had 8 people on my list. You'll find out whose involve in this mess. I needed to let them know many things i had no idea how but i finally came up with a plan.

It was already getting dark i decided i should start heading home . I got into my car and drove home. I come inside and my parents were arguing, it was no longer a surprise anymore . I walked right passed them without saying a word and into my room. I got my journal out and opened it to the page were i had the plan. My plan would be ready in a week.

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