Homecoming

Homecoming: The Pain

It hasn't even been that long and it hurts, so much. I know I'm with someone else but Jacob being gone is killing me. I can't listen to Kiss by Prince, or any cover of it, without feeling a rush of energy through me and then getting sad.
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I look at pictures of him when I can, god this hurts. His face haunts my dreams. The one night we had together was amazing, even though I'll never get it again. His voice was so perfect and I'll never hear it again, not without stalking his YouTube page.
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His YouTube page is the deadliest of them all. I open it and all I feel is pain. Pain. Pain. Pain. That word, it's not enough. It doesn't describe what I feel. I love this boy. He is my first love and that's not something you let go of so easily.
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I want him back, but I'm taken by someone else who means a lot to me. I'm stuck without Jacob, forever, unless something happens to change that.