The day started quite normal,yeah you may wonder what a normal day is to me,basically its a sad day full of depression and regrets of being alive. But that's how most youths start their days.
So i woke up and prepared for school and not cause i loved school but cause my parents insisted on me joining university.
An innocent soul 😂just kidding am no innocent soul i just have an innocent face. So i smoked a little just to chill out my anxiety before stepping out into the world.
Reaching at school i try to seclude myself from the world by always having my headphones on.
Though today is a different day ,someone came by where am sited and said hi. My heart pounding,hands shaking and sweating am so tensed cant even say hi back"fuck you anxiety" i said this to my self,stammering a little as i respond. He then sits down besides me and starts asking me questions and we get to know each other.
I finally felt like i belonged in this society and we got to know each other more and he took my contacts. In my mind this was gonna be a great friendship since he was talkative and intelligent.
Day goes by as normal i return home though today with a smile on my face. I finally made a new friend. Couldn't wait to tell my therapist of this amazing news during our next session.
School now felt better now that i knew someone. Days passed into weeks and we hanged out after school and i was loving our friendship.
So one night i was attending an event at a well known bar downtown. And guess who i bumped into it was Carl my friend from school. Since i am a loner i was obviously alone at the event so he asked if i would join him and his friends well i didn't see a reason why not to.
So the night passed and it was Lit,day came and he suggested that we go for coffee and i agreed with the idea. I know by now anyone normal would have seen the hints that Carl likes me and am practically leading him on ....but for someone who hasn't had friends throughout her life and is into girls I never saw anything of the sort.
Anyway I think i was drugged or something cause the next thing i saw i was on the floor fully naked and alone. No wallet,no phone I was so confused it was dark. So i stood up and looked for a switch but there was none. The room didn't have windows i was scared i tried opening the door but it wasn't opening think was locked from outside.
I couldn't breathe i was shaking think this is what you could call a panic attack. Slowly took deep breathes and started shouting for help when i had creaks on the wooden floor and then the door knob turned....i quickly run to a corner of the room and to my surprise it was Carl. I was in shock I asked him what happened. He then looked at me with such an irritating smirk on his face and then he walked away.
As he left I started crying and couldn't help but think how the universe is always working against me. As time passed i began to feel cold and hungry. So i decide to call out Carl's name,I did this a couple of times with no response then suddenly a well build goatee man came in and said"the boss is out"This statement now made me confused more than ever. Anyway i gathered my courage and told him that i was cold,hungry and i really needed to use the washroom. He didn't say a thing he walked out and locked the door behind him a couple minutes later he came back with a blanket,a bucket and a plate of rice and a glass of milk. He then placed them on the floor and said "you getting special treatment cause the boss likes you and says you good for business"then he left.
This set of words left me confused,but i first had to pee so i quickly took the bucket and relieved my almost bursting bladder. Then sat back on the floor and covered my nakedness with the blanket and sat to eat the rice. I did this as i tried thinking about the unexpected turn of events and how it led me to such a miserable state.
As time passed i begun to feel drowsy and i begun hiring voices. I recognized the voices but i didn't have the energy to talk or even open my eyes. Later on when i regained consciousness i found myself in a sort of container and my hands and legs tied up. I could tell i wasn't alone , I was so tensed so i just sat there thinking of the worst case scenarios of how this will end.
Moments later the container was opened and then I saw Carl standing in a black leather jacket and he said in a coarse scary voice "Get out silly girls we got work to do".I froze in shock as the other girls walked out ,Carl then came and dragged me out at this time tears were rolling down my cheeks and all I could wish for was death. We were taken to a room and told that we are there cause of our stupid desperation towards boys and now we are commercial sex workers and that we all belong to Carl. After the briefing we were forced to shower and given provocative clothes to wear. At this moment i knew my life had changed and my preference of girls over dudes was not an option.
Weeks passed leading to months each day I would sleep with nearly to five men at least. We were introduced to hardcore drugs such as heroin and cocaine. My life had taken a turn now i did whatever i could to impress Carl and make him earn more money. I had learnt impressing the boss earned me privileges.
At night when i went to bed those were the worst moments cause of the nightmares,the thoughts of how worried my parent were.
It was years and now i am used to the drugs,sex and abortion life. Clearly this isn't where i saw myself at twenty three. One day Sheila a girl I met there came up with the idea that we should try and escape.
The thought of it gave me chills and couldn't imagine what big boss Carl would do to us if we got caught. So i backed out and weeks later she tried to escape and next thing we had is that she had been stabbed to death. I felt guilty cause I never tried talking her out of the idea,or maybe i would have gone with her and tried to protect her cause she was younger than me.
I never stopped thinking of her and her death disturbed me much and weirdly gave me the urge to try and escape and sell out Carl to the authorities. So i started plotting my escape weeks passed and finally the night of my escape was here...
I managed to get out of where we were being held and i started running without looking back as I reached the main road i saw a black SUV coming from the back at an extreme speed,i recognized the car and it was one of Carl's i begun running but i wasn't fast enough. They caught up and two of Carl's men came out and the started hitting me,then one removed his pants and forcefully had sex with me as the other one watched. I tried screaming for help but all was in vain. He then stood up and commanded the other man who looked slightly younger and told him to stab me till i was dead. He looked scared but a gun was pointed to him so he didn't have much of a choice . He stabbed me over and over and i couldn't even keep count. Luckily from a distance we saw faint car headlights so the men got into their car and quickly drove off. I was numb and in pain blood dripping from each part of my body. I then passed out and when i woke up i found my self in a hospital with the police there and my parents who i hadn't seen for five years. I was happy to be alive , i stayed at the hospital for a while but now my life had gotten slightly worse the doctors confirmed that i was pregnant and had HIV .I didn't know what to do next but my mum kept assuring me that everything will work out. Finally i was discharged and i had a few visits to the police giving out my statement so that they could take Carl down. Its now about four years latter Carl is in prison for life the other girls were saved and taken through therapy just like me and i hope they are all okay. I am still HIV positive but with a positive attitude in life, I just enrolled my sweet baby girl Liza to preschool and am married to an amazing God fearing woman who is introducing me to Gods word. I still remember of my days in the sex business and thank God for saving me and blessing me with am amazing family. Who knows maybe by now i would have killed my self if none of this events happened. Am happy to know this is my happy ending and not all of us can have a happy fairytale ending.
