Invisible Me

chapter 4

Omg deshwan is really helping me out.Out of people me but actually  i know no one wouldve helped me because im a loner.But i feel really bad i was being such a jerk towards him and told him to.leave he probably will never  help me again because of that. i dont know if i should run after him and apoligize or stay here in this restroom and cry.I cant stand that my mom makes my life hard like it isnt hard enough at school i take my anger out on people who dont deserve it why must she do things to hurt me.

  While i was sitting in the bathroom cleaning my face i thought about what have i ever done for my mom to treat me the way she does sometimes i feel as if i was a mistake that shouldnt have happen.she makes me feel like an nobody.like a person who has no meaning in this world.sort of like the  jungle im a cub and im fending out on my own even though i have a mother who should be there when i need her. what about my dad where the hell is he.. im a girl without a father what the hell else can go wrong in my life

   As the day was about to end i sat in 7th period starring at the clock just 10minutes left until i go the house of hell i  stopped looking at the clock just to see deshawn sitting next to me just straring  at me i was hoping he didnt see me blushing cause i knew my face lite up this boy is no joke he fineeeee!!. We locked lies and then i looked away i thought about how.horriable i treated him earlier.Finally the bell rang and i waited till everyone else left the class i like to wait so people dont push on me causing the bruises i have to sting.

   In the halls i seen  deshawn talking to his group of basketball friends i looked and just kept walking until i felt hands come up and grab my waist i turned around to see who the hell grabbed my waist cause i felt em get hard It was Deshawn. My  heart started to skip a beat. I looked up at him and he smiled showing off his pretty white teeth.

Deshawn Pov

   in  class all i could do was look at her i couldnt stop starring i noticed in class she was just staring at the clock with an nerves look on her face i wanted to ask why but i didnt she turned away from the clock and looked at me we locked eyes and thats when i seen her blushing a little it was cute. when the bell rang i waited with my friends until i seen her walk out thats when i decide i was gonna make my move i walked up on her and grabbed her waist lawd she got tha body of a goddess kinda got hard for second Im just hoping she aint notice that.