Random Thoughts

10/30/17

Tomorrow is Halloween and I'm probably just gonna sit at home and watch netflix because nobody cares to hang out with me anymore.
Today my friends left me at lunch and as I'm coloring they come back and my gay friend no magically turns straight and gets a girlfriend over night comes over and messing with what I'm coloring with. He also was all hugging up on me today and I swear I hate it when he does that. I just don't like hugs anymore. I just feel numb. Also I finished my book "By the time you read this I'll be dead" By Julie Anne Peters. I really like the book and now I'm reading another one called Impulse.
Today in English class we could work on a project with one partner and I chose one of my only friends in the class, and the only thing she could possibly talk about when doing the project was how much she hates my friend. Well girl he ain't your boyfriend so the freak do you think I need you Imput. I was just wanting to come home listen to some music and read at my desk but turns out. Y brothers cat peed on my desk for like the hundredth time in a row so I had to clean that up.now I'm sitting at my desk blaring my music as loud as it can go with my earbuds in on the verge of tears and writing to you guys. So life is just freaking great. Also every-time I smiled today and acted happy it just felt so odd to me. I want to cry so badly but my brothers PlayStation is is in my room and he is playing it so I can't cry...yet.