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seungkwan [SVT] pt.1

a/n: S E N D I D E A S / R E Q U E S T S DNNDDJDJDJ
*ーLOWER CASE INTENTED
[lowkey angsty lmao what is wrong wit me]
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seungyon was the name that your mother gave you, and the aunty next door had a son named seungkwan. uncoincidentally, your mother and his mother were close friends from high school. since you were born in the same year, both of the close mothers agreed to give you and the boy similar names, just for the fun of it. for the past 19 years, you were known as the seung seung couple, in honor of the song song couple.

it was january 16th, of 1998 that boo seungkwan was born, and it was june 16th, of 2012 that he left for his entertainment company. you could remember the conversation that the two of you had. the smells, tastes, sounds on the day that he left your small hometown in Jeju.

it was until you had to drop him off at the airport that you realized he wasn't going to be coming back for a long time. he started to walk away, his pink suitcase in hand, plastered with the cute stickers you decorated the outer hard shell with. you began to wonder where he'd go, and when he'd ever be back.

he took 30 steps before he reached the inside of the airport. "hey! boo seungkwan!" you screamed with such pain, you couldn't feel it.

he swiveled around to meet your eyes from the long distance, and he dared to justーsmile. it hurt your heart even more that he had to leave.
"hey, hyun seungyonnie!" he replied in a similar scream, yet it didnt look like he was hurt at all.

you paused a moment to catch your breath, it hurtーyour chest. it'd been awhile since you'd feel that way. "hey..." you started. then you stopped talking. you turned your back on him and stood, just stood. hoping he'd leave quickly so you could cope with him leaving quickly. hurry, please. you thought.

behind you, seungkwan just shrugged and started walking closer to the door. 19 steps... 17 steps... 13 steps...

he was getting too close to that door. the door that would take him away for a long time. the door that would take away your friend you loved for a long time.

10 steps... 7 steps... you had to actー quickly. 5 steps... 4 steps...

before he could even reach 3 steps, you sprinted across to him, and hugged his back tightly. "boo seungkwannie." you uttered quietly, your tears wetting the back of his nice dress-shirt. "i, i really love you. please dont go."

why did you choose this time, this moment, to tell him? seungyon! dont hold him back from his career!

he turned around to face you and hugged you back. it was a few sad moments until he broke it with his quiet pubertal voice. "seungyonnie," he murmured back. "i love you too."

you loved that response, you felt so happy inside. your stomach felt like it was being kicked from the inside then kissed by multiple baby butterflies. but then, he said something that shattered your entire existence.

shattered you, just broke you apart. "but seungyonnie." he started again, then looked downー maybe from guilt. he looked up again to meet your gaze. "i have to go now. i promise i'll come back to you one day, i promise."

he gave you a sad and guilt filled smileーone that you'd never forgetー and slipped from your grasp into the airport. dropping to the ground on your knees, you let the shame and reality that he is striving for his career and you shouldn't hold him back, although you wanted to. one of the sister's that tagged along to say goodbye, rushed from the car to save you from being embarrassed and crying in public.

"seungyon," boo jinseol (a/n; lol yes, that's one of his actual sisters' names) cooed to you softly. "lets get up, c'mon."

you urged your body up and leaned on jinseol's body for support while hiding your face in her shoulder while walking. when you got into the car, you began to sob, letting all of the salty, cold tears flow out.