Friend Zone

The only chapter

I never want to be your number 2. I never want to be your back up, your safety net, your just in case, your runner up, or your conselation prize. Iv been stuck in the friend zone since the day I met you. I've been the boy who's always been waiting for a chance. I've  been there to pick you up when your down, catch you when fall and be there for you when you needed a shoulder to cry on. I've had to watch you date people who don’t deserve you and treat you like trash, but thats only because they can't see the diamond beneath the coal. But I can. I see how beautiful you are even when you cant. I fell in love with you day I saw you and I fall all over again everytime I get a glimpse of you. Your the first person I think about in the morning, the last thing I think about when I go to sleep and the only one I think about all everyday. When I see you my heart starts to race and I get butterflies in my stomach. When you touch me my knee's go weak. And when I hear you voice its like angels are singing my name . Your like my personal drug and I’m hooked like an addict savoring every hit not knowing when ill get my mext high. And when were apart, every second is like an agonizing year without you and every day passes by slower than the last. But when im arround you its like the whole world stops and we’re the only two in it but in reality, time only speeds up to take you aways from me that much sooner. Every night when I go to sleep I dream about you and I finally being together and the life we’ll share, how many kids well create, and what it’ll feel like to call you mine and mine alone. You call me a hopeless romantic, but maybe I’m just hopeless. I’m hopelessly in love with you, I fallen head over heals for you. I would go to the end of the world and back just to see you smile. But you dont think of me that way. To you I’m just the bestfriend who’s easy to talk to, the one who you can drag along for the ride cause you know I'll all always be by your side to protect you. I love you with every fiber of my being and to the deepest depths of my soul I am completely and totally infatuated with the thought that you might ever feel the same way I do for you. but I'll always be your number 2 cause your love belongs to the one who’s stolen all you firsts. Hes hard wired to your brain and has a direct line to you heart. No matter how much wrong he does it always get wiped away as soon as he pulls on your string cause like a pupet he controls you. I try to cut the strings but everytime I get close he pull you back and adds another one to tighten his grip. So Im forced to watch from backstage only to clean up the stage when hes done and you cant even see it happening. And when he doesn’t want you, you put the reins in the hand of another man that just streers you wrong gets in a wreck and leaves like it was a drive by. But I’m there to pull you out of the ditch , stich you up and nurse you back to health and teach you how to love again and when your all fixed and well, you say thanks friend I really needed you and you go right back to the one who tossed you aside in the first place. Its time for me to take what’s mine cause I've put in the time. If you give me a chance I’m not letting you go again. You'll never be mistreated or forgotten, cause you’ll alway be my number one, my one and only, my shinnig jewl. I love you too much to let you slip away cause I wasn’t holding you tight enough. I’m never letting go cause I can’t stand to see you hurt. I’m done being your number 2, but maybe I dont need to be a number. Maybe I’m playing myself thinking we can ever be more than what we are, just friends.