I wake up hours later, confused where I'm at, then remembering the events that led me here.
I scrunched my eyes together shaking the thoughts out of my head..
when I realized I couldn't stop thinking about it I soon started to wonder about my sexuality. did I prefer guys? am I gay?
I laughed it off. I have a girl friend...
well sort of, she's from this online game I play; grand fantasia.
we've never met before but... I like her, she kicks ass. I know she's special by the way she talks to me. she's a junior in high school. we can't give out numbers or addresses cause we're still just dating. but I know she lives in the same state as me.
we like the same music, food, even color, green.
so... why do.. why can't I stop thinking about him?
if only someone could answer my questions for me...
I sat up looking at the clock it was a bit after 2pm. I quickly walked over to the shower.
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> hour later<
walking towards my car I drive to my house, building up all my hope that he left.
to my joy he was gone I checked the whole house even my sister was gone. what luck!
I grabbed a bag of carrots and jumped on the couch in complete joy of my alone time in my own house. like it should be every weekend.
I grab my lap top and get on grand fantasia, I run to the closest mail box and sure enough I have a letter, from her.
Hey,
I've missed you, where are you? Let's meet up.
I reply quickly,
just got on dear, I missed you as well. where should we meet?
I ran some errands before I checked again
the message read,
let's meet in a different game. I'm on Second Life, join me there. please.
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After downloading Second Life, I create my character and get started. spending about 40$ in real life on items for the game.
we met up at the Lost Forest, her character was beautiful. I liked her personality though idc how she looks in real life.
so how was your night?
I asked her
it was okay, wbu?
she took a while to answer this question.
I didn't think much about it.
I had a rough night.
really? Why?
no reason, don't worry.
no tell me please
she was really wanting to know
uhm promise not to judge me?
I promise.
my sister's boyfriend was drunk last night and tried having sex with me. I ended up leaving in a rush.
....
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> Thursday<
for days she didn't bother talking to me. I felt lonesome while she was gone. maybe I shouldn't have said anything. and to make it worse I skipped school for a few days just to figure everything out. in conclusion I don't think I should do anything about it. he was drunk and I freaked out. end of story.
