my life with Andy

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Dear God this is so old🤣 sorry in advance.

I've known Andy on my life, and he's like a brother to me. But it was until about a year ago that I start feeling things for him, things that I've never felt for anyone. I've been with him through every mistake he's made, and every terrible girlfriend he's had add and I've just grown more jealous. That's the sad thing is is he doesn't love me like I love him. I remember when you first started dating Juliet. I'd seen them together and I decided it'd be cute, and then about a month later I realized oh my God I love him. And I don't get me wrong I love Juliet to death and she's been there for me when no one else was, but after she started dating and everything changed she wasn't the same. She started acting like she was better than everyone, like she was more important. And she said it was cuz Andy changed her, but I know Andy, I know he wouldn't do that. Have you ever have those feelings after you introduce your best friend to the man of your dreams, that you made the biggest mistake of your life and that if you would have never have done that would you still have had those feelings? Well that's how I feel now. Is it just because my best friend is dating the guy that I've known forever, and I just jealous? And I can't help but feel the strings burning feeling in me whenever I see them two together, holding hands, kissing and I don't understand what to do. Maybe it's the fear that I'm losing my best friend to my other friend. Maybe it's the feeling knowing if they're happier even though I've known him longer. What if things change and Andy doesn't want to be my friend anymore. What if things change and Juliet doesn't want to be there for me. I can't lose both of them that would crush me. Had my heart broken enough to know it's true love when I see it, and what they have isn't true love. It's toxic, dangerous almost. And everytime I try and show Andy he gets mad and storms off. I fear I might be losing my best friend to the love of my life. Or maybe I'm losing the love of my life to my best friend. But that doesn't matter what's the difference if I lose one I lose the other there's no coming back from that. You didn't come to read the story because well I'm upset about my best friend loving my lover. No you came because you wanted to write a story about me falling in love with a guy that I can't have me making him cheat on my best friend. So that's what you're going to get, and I'll make sure that I don't leave out any of the gritty details. I'll make sure that I included every miserable thing that I did, every lie that I made him tell. Then maybe I can finish how I actually feel. But until then enjoy my Wicked freaky book. Cuz I've got nothing better to do than tell the entire public my life.