Sergio looked at me and said "it is my brother" . I didn't know what to say or do because he just started crying more and more . I looked at him and just said "Sergio what about your brother". He put his hand to his head and was just rocking himself . He tried to tell me something but I could not under stand him . I said "never mind Sergio it is okay you don't have to talk about it". He looked at me and said " no Carla I need to talk about it !". I was thinking what could be so bad but I said "okay Sergio" . I put my hand on his and he looked at my hand and squeezed it . I smiled so big but when he looked at me I wiped my big grin off my face . He said " thanks Carla ! And about my brother he died 1 year ago from crossing the road . Some stupid guy hit him and he was my big brother . He tough me how to play football 🏈 he was the best football player at my high school and tonight was the first night that I had fun at a football game without him" . I was so shocked and I didn't know what to say but all I know was I was about to cry. But I tried so hard to keep it in because I didn't want to start crying and then Sergio cry more . I said " oh my god Sergio I am so sorry for your lost!trust me when I say this there are stupid a** drivers in this world" when I said that tears started falling down my face. Sergio looked at me and said "oh no Carla I didn't want to make you cry I'm sorry" I wiped my eyes and said "NO Sergio it wasn't you it is something else! I promise" he said "Carla if you need to talk to me I am here" I wanted to kiss him so bad!! I looked at him and said "nobody has ever said that to me Sergio😭" he kinda smiled and said "well I am that awesome😂" I laughed to . I said "no you talk about your brother and then I will talk to you about my problem " he said " okay deal !" We both wipes are tears like little girl and sat up . Sergio started with " I miss my brother so much Carla . It hurts everytime I think about him . My parents try and act like nothing happened and I have no clue how they do it like that was there oldest son! It makes me so angry how they act about him . I can never talk to them about him because everytime I try they just say " stop Sergio we don't speak of him" everytime they say that I just push my emotions farther down . You are the first person I have even attempted to talk to about him with" I felt all warm inside and i felt so special . But I responded with "Sergio I get your pain of loosing a love one trust me ! Ik what you are going through! And about your parents they probably think if they just pretend nothing happens it's probably because it is way to much pain and if they didn't pretend they probably couldn't live with there selfs ." Sergio was crying and I started to . Sergio squeezed my hand ever harder and said "Carla how could you know what I am going through?" I looked at him and I just flooded with tears I said "because Sergio I lost my dad ! And I practically lost my mom and a baby sister and my brother doesn't even notice I am alive !" He looked so shocked he responded with "omg Carla what happen to your dad? And your mom and your baby sister? And why doesn't your brother notice you?" It took him 2 deep breathes to say all that and it felt horrible . I told him "my dad died in a car accident! One morning he was going to work and this car ran a red light and hit his side door . He wasn't died he was just really injured the ambulance took him to the hospital . He had a head trauma and a bunch of broken ribs and he lost his leg . They took him to surgery and he survived surgery . He came out of surgery and he looked healthy and happy . They told my dad something but he didn't let my mom or me and my brother know what the doctor said but 2 weeks later they let him go home and after that he was fine . He was working on his car and all of a sudden he falls and starts shaking. My mom calls 911 they show up and take him . Me and my family follow we get to the hospital and the doctor tells my mom that he is really sick and he has been sense the accident and the doctor told us that he told Dad to take it easy Bc it would take the brain awhile to heal from surgery and that even when the brain heals that he could either Loose his memory or get put in a coma but Dad never told us that! Mom asked the doctor how sick is he? The doctor touched my moms shoulders and says " he is so sick that he probably will wake up but he will be in so much pain that it will cause him to go into a coma and there is no way we can get your husband out of a coma so he will die. My mom falls to the floor and my brother just walked away and I just stood there I couldn't move . So after all that we sat by his bed and just waited for him to wake up .. he finally did and my mom was already crying she looked at my dad and said " Babe why didn't you tell me ?" My Dad responded with "beacause either way babe I was going to die and if I told all you then that would have changed the last month together and I didn't want that" after my dad said those words I just started crying it felt like I part of me died. My dad keep complaining of the pain and he looked at my mom and said "please make it stop! Please .. it hurts" my mom was crying and she was scared .. I looked at her and told her " mom make the pain stop" my mom just stood up and when to get the doctor and told them that she wanted to make the pain stop and everyone knew what the meant the doctor walked away and was gone for like 20 minuets he care in with another doctor with this tube full of liquid he put it in my Dads iv . They doctor told my mom it will take 5-10 min to work my mom just cried and cried we all walked up to my dad and was holding his hand and my dad looked at me and my brother and said " take care of your mom she is going to need you" and he told my mom " be strong Babe I love youu... and the all of a sudden a beeping noise when off we all looked at it was the monitor the doctor came in and told us "im sorry about your loss" my mom like died but anyway that was the story about my dad". I was crying so much after that part I didn't even know if i could finish the other part . Sergio looked at me and said " oh my Carla I am so so so so sorry . I had no clues. I feel so stupid for crying and even bringing this all up ! Please forgive me !" He gave me a big hug and I just started crying even more. I turned to him and said "I need to talk about the rest" he just said "okay I am here". I wiped my tears and started with "I lost my mom because after my dad died she started going out drinking every night . One night I remember somebody found her outside the bar and got into her phone and called me and told me where she was and stuff . My mom started bringing alcohol home and would drink a whole bottle a day and she would be walking and she would just fall . I couldn't even look at her she was so gone that it hurt to . I miss my mom . I miss talking to her,I miss her taking care of me now I take care of her . And my brother blames me for my dad death because the car he was working on was suppose to be mine when I graduated high school and he wanted it all nice for me . He blames me for everything so he barely even looks or talks to me and my baby sister . She was 1 years old when she died ... she was born with fetal alcohol syndrome. My mom never knew she was pregnant and she was drinking and doing drugs and I didn't know she was either one night my mom was screaming and my brother called 911 and when they got there they looked at my mom and said " mam how long have you been pregnant?" I was shocked and so was everyone else . They keep telling my mom to stay still and push and she did but when the baby came out she wasn't breathing. They did CPR and she started breathing they took her and my mom to the hospital they could smell the alcohol on my mom they asked me " how long has she been drinking ?" I felt so stupid because I didn't even know the answer .once we got to the hospital they told us that the baby was going to be really sick bc of the alcohol. The asked if my mom wanted to go to rehab she told them no that she wanted to stay with her kids and her baby they told my mom that the baby had to go to the doctors to get breathing treatment because she had lung problems . Once my mom got home from the hospital she drank and drank and drank . I had school so I couldn't take care of angel . But I would ask my mom did you take angel to the doctors she would always tell me yes I didn't and not to worry it is her baby not mine . 10 months later angel was turning blue/purple and I knew something was wrong She just keep getting worse I told my mom but she didn't even try and care all she would tell me was that she was tired .. I tried to get her to the doctors and by the time I got her to the hospital I when to get her from the backseat and she wasn't breathing ..." I couldn't go farther in the story it was to hard . Sergio was crying and I was crying and I couldn't stop Sergio said "I'm so sorry Carla I had no clue that your life was like that" I told him " nobody did Sergio no one talked to me I don't got any friends" Sergio said "well Carla you gave me!and always will" . Sergio wiped my tears and said "don't cry princess 👑" I haven't felt this loved and happy sense my dad ! I turned to him and started to tell Sergio that but I stoped half way through because I knew he didn't feel the same . I looked at the clock and it was morning . Sergio started laughing and I asked him what he was laughing at and he said "I never thought talking would take up that much time" I said "yeah me neither😂" he said "let's go home" I agreed ..... NEXT CHAPTER!!!!!
