Worth a Shot

Laylor 2

An interview with my best friend

I: Best friend
L: Laura

I: "I leave for a few months without internet and come home to see this picture. You and Ben Foster, how did this happen?"

L: "It's a long story..."

I: "Laura... what did you do? What did you do to Taylor? How is this possible Laura?!"

L: "LISTEN I didn't mean for this to happen I have no control over this. I just have to do this it's the right thing. And Taylor I can't." Laura starts tearing up

I: "Do you still love her?"

L: "I love Ben" Laura says looking up trying to make her tears roll back.

I: "Laura I have known you for 20 years! Stop bullshiting me. No one is here, no one is listening, be honest. Do you still love her?"

L: "I do. Of course I fucking do as I said I have no control over this. I'm with Ben now, we are expecting and that's how it's supposed to be..." Laura says looking at her Friend.

I: "Mhm, yeah, I'm having none of that. What happened from the beginning to now. Tell me."

L: "Do I have to? I really don't feel like facin--"

I: "Tell me. Now. Nobody deserves to get their heart broken for no reason."

L: "Okay I know I, I will start then. Where do I begin...
Season 1 all the kissing and stuff it got me excited. I'm kissing a woman wow this is amazing you know. I started devoloping feelings for her...
Season 2 we started getting closer privately and I already knew where this was going and how dangerous it will be for me. But I kept going I couldn't stop.
Season 3 I loved her. She loved me. We started dating.
Laura's voice starts to crack her eyes filling with tears again.
I was happy she was too, but we had to keep it a secret which was close to impossible, not only from press but also from my religion... You know what they think about that.
Season 4 We were still head over heels with each other and then things happened too quick. I had to get married and pregnant and scientology had this man for me that would be perfect, Ben. Taylor simply took it into her own hands and proposed to me. It was beautiful. Laura can't stop herself anymore from crying
We were at this beautiful hill. No people just us and a small lake. We met up there she set everything up for us. I got there, there was a small house and there was a walking way leading to the house. It was covered in roses and candles...
Laura breaks down her best friend takes her into her arms
And then I, I followed those roses into the house. Keep in mind it was night time it was so beautiful with the candles. So I went into the house and there she was looking stunning as always. And then she gave me this speech that was heart breaking, really. I knew what she was going to do and I knew I had to choose. I couldn't stop crying throughout the entire speech because I was so happy this was finally happening.

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Laura you showed me what love is, what loyalty is, what it feels like to be someone's first priority no matter what stands between us, being ready to give up almost anything to be with each other. So I'm asking you now. Will you make me the happiest woman in the universe and marry me?

As soon as she ended her speech I didn't have much time to make a desicion. So I chose what I don't know yet will be the best for me."
Laura starts uncontrollably sobbing

I: "Please don't say what you are about to say" she distance herself from Laura in shock

L: " I...sobbs ... I  said no."
Laura breaks down unable to hold herself up on the chair.

L: "I have chosen. I need it, it helps me through my life. It makes me forget about all my worries and traumas I have."

I: "Then fucking get a normal counselling you asshole oh my god Laura I never really cared about it til now. But I better not say anything against it before I become a SP"

L: "It's not the same thing as counselling YOU KNOW THAT... so yes that happened. She asked me why and I simply said "I can play a gay person, but I can't be one" and she walked away tears streaming down her face telling me that I am her love of her life but also her biggest heart break of her life. She hasn't dated anyone since. I'm so sorry for doing this to her really." 

I: "My ass you are. You are fucking stupid that's what you are. Now, are you happy with Ben who leaves his fiances five million times? Tell me. Do you even love him?"

L: "I do love him stop talking about him like that. He is nice, fun and pretty."

I: "Do you love him the same way you love or loved Taylor? Do you think you ever will? I know you and her were special."

L: "I love him. Taylor, she was different. I will never be able to love someone like that, besides her. But I can't I made my desicion."

I: "The stupidest desicion I have ever seen you make, really Laura. What's gonna happen now? You are her co-star you kiss her once in a while! You can't do that to her! She has a heart you know, which I can't say for you."

L: "Can you stop with the bashing and blaming please I already know. And our working relationship it's something... we just finished season 5 and the kisses, I enjoy each of them, the closeness... I soak it all in I miss her but I can't. She does everything properly, every kiss, every scene. As soon as they end though she is out of my eye seight. I am struggling really hard to look at her like I'm in love with her or sometimes I can't even kiss her properly because it hurts. In the proposing scene I couldn't even kiss her properly because it reminded me of last time. I felt horrible and not gonna lie it looks horrible on camera too. Mouth closed making the kiss look like two heads are being pressed together, well done me."

I: "She had to propose to you again? Poor thing... Also I know why you are struggling to do all those things with her you wanna know why?"

L: "Yeah."

I: "Because you are an fucking asshole and because you still love her."

L: "I know and maybe I still do... but I had to do what's best for me!"

I: "Which is clearly not that. Otherwise you wouldn't be sitting here crying."

L: "I don't know okay, it's over. She hates me. She is really good at acting like she is okay though... I'm marrying Ben we are having a baby soon. That's it this is my life now. I made my desicion for better or for worse."

I: "If anything bad happens to that baby though or to you, leave. You hear me? And if you don't you can put me on your SP list got it?"

L: "I can't leave. I need it for my mental state."

I: "Get yourself a Healy god damn it Laura are you stupid?! There are people who have studied psychology that can help you PROFESSIONALLY just as good and even better and will not blackmail you with everything you have told them when you decide to leave. It's called pledge of secrecy which your ""religion"" doesn't have. I know you are screwed but for gods sake think for your own life and the one of your little one's."

L: "I can't. I don't know please stop. They know too much."

L: "I really miss her" Laura says starting to cry again

Her best friend takes her into her arms and says "You are a grown woman Laura... you made a desicion, now you have to deal with it. You could have had it all but you decided against it. Stick with it now. She will never come back again. You broke her  and her heart"

Laura sobs hugging her best friend
"I know."

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Y'all is this too real/ too private? Should I delete it? Kinda touches a little lot on reality with a certain touchy subject in there.