Take Me Back [Minhyun x Jaehwan] (Complete)

Take Me Back

Jaehwan opened the door to his room, walked slower than he had ever been and directly knocked out onto the bed he had missed so much. He finally arrived at the dorm safely after Wanna One's activities. Those things could kill him as he didn't even care how busy he would be right now. He wanted to be tired, he wanted to rest his ass down and caught some breaths for a while. But, how could he be exhausted when he was doing the thing that he had been dreaming about? How could he betray his willingness to reach the top? His hard work had been paid off when he could join this powerful team. He couldn't be that easy, could he?

He sighed too hard, didn't realize someone had entered that room too. With exactly same dark circle around his eyes. Definitely showed he was as tired as Jaehwan, or maybe more (because he had to handle 10 kids' behaviour at the same time. He got more job to do than Jaehwan). That person threw himself at the bed next to Jaehwan, resulting a shock yet confused face Jaehwan couldn't hold on.

"Hyung what the fuck? You scared me!"

Jaehwan got up and pulled the blanket near him, covering his body which still fully-dressed. He didn't take it off, his hands were too tired to move around his body today (this was him in his very-tired-i-couldn't-even-walk phase, too exaggerated, he knew, but could he blame himself? Of course no!)

At first, all Jaehwan could see was this person's back. After that, he turned himself around, made Jaehwan's breath hitched as he hesitantly stared right through that person's eyes. That person sharply watched Jaehwan, put his head comfortably on a pillow, but his eyes never left Jaehwan for a second.

"Okay, hyung. This is more frightening. What the hell is wrong with you?"

"Actually, it has to be my question, what's wrong with you these days?"

Jaehwan blinked, thought deeply, why was his question asked by the person in front of him instead? He had the right to know first. It was his question though.

"Answer me first, it's me who question you firstly. Hyung, are you alright?"

"I am not, for your information."

"Well, okay."

"Now, answer my question."

"No, i don't think i have a thing to tell you. I'm alright. And that question is ridiculous, i'm not feeling weird, and everyone is okay with me. There's nothing wrong with me."

Jaehwan gripped his blanket a little bit too tight, he didn't lie he swore. He told exactly the truth. Why he had to be so scared with this situation?

"No, you're not."

"Are you trying to second-guessing me right now?"

"But you're not okay. If i'm not okay, it means you too. You're not okay, i can see it."

"What kind of conclusion is that? Minhyun hyung, are you out of your mind?"

Minhyun was taken aback, he didn't expect Jaehwan to say such a thing to him. Like 'out of his mind?', seriously Jaehwan, seriously? If that was what Jaehwan assumed about his situation, then maybe Minhyun could guarantee that He was out of his mind because of Jaehwan, he couldn't deny.

(HE SPILT HIS OWN TEA. SOMETHING WAS WRONG WITH MINHYUN'S MIND.)

"Kinda, but this is different."

"What makes it different?"

"I can't tell you, it's a secret."

A pillow suddenly hit Minhyun's face. He groaned lightly and looked at Jaehwan with the most judging expression ever.

"What was that pillow for?"

"Suddenly i have the urge to punch you in the face. But because i still want to be a good kid to you. I change it to pillow, softer and more subtle, right?"

"Too honest, aren't you?"

"Tell me about it, hyung."

Jaehwan shut his mouth, didn't have the gut to continue this conversation anymore. Silence enveloped both of them and he couldn't help but enjoyed it. This was what he needed the most. Quietness and motionless. No one made any intention to break this peaceful condition until Minhyun burst into laughter, the sarcastic one. It was annoying to Jaehwan's ear. It was really pissed him off. But he didn't have enough power to shout at this hyung, told him to stop so he was just let himself be.

"What is that Jaehwan? Are you avoiding me?"

"What?"

"Hahahaha Jaehwan, don't act dumb. You try so hard to stay away from me. Why is that so?"

Jaehwan could feel the movement of his bed as Minhyun got closer to him, little by little. Jaehwan's body became stiff, he sat there like a statue, never had a single glance with Minhyun who already put his hand on Jaehwan's shoulder. Actually laid next to him, Minhyun's body had reached the shortest distance he could have when Jaehwan was around him. He called it 'The safest zone'.

Almost there but without really touching it. How great.

"It's obvious, i didn't want to point it out because yes, i didn't care at all. But it makes me so irritated right now. Too clear to see,  I don't want to mention this, but everyone is worried about us at this moment. Do we fight or something, i say i don't know what's going on with us too, but they don't believe me."

Uncomfortable with this topic, Jaehwan fluttered his eyes, avoided someone right beside him.

Too close.

Too dangerous.

"Us?"

Minhyun nodded, waited for Jaehwan's reaction to come.
Which was nothing, Jaehwan stayed silent for a bit, loaded that information then opened his mouth.

"They are weird. They don't know anything but they accuse us. How bad is that."

"Can not complaint, so agree with you. We're alright, right jae?"

Then Minhyun smiled, the brightest one Jaehwan had ever seen. Maybe because he could be relieved now that this misunderstanding had done and no one was right. He could be happy again for sure because nothing was wrong with him and Jaehwan. It was knowledgeable to Jaehwan, he hardly understood but all Jaehwan cared for was his hyung's happiness, nothing else.

"Thanks for giving me certainty. I was so anxious when everyone gave me the sign that i was not in a good term with you. But you admit the opposite, now i can rest fearlessly and i'm fine again."

It was jaehwan's turn to smile, not the sincere one he could predict, but it was enough to calm his hyung down, untied the stuffy distance between them as Minhyun grew apart and laid properly on the other side of the bed.

Something in Jaehwan's head yelled loudly, like a stream of vomit, that voice mocked at everything.

--- WHAT THE FUCK? I DON'T GET THIS. AT FIRST, IT WAS HIM CONCERNING ME, NOW HE FEELS ALRIGHT AFTER MAKING SURE THING WITH ME, HOLY SHIT! CAN I FALL OUT OF LOVE WITH YOU, HWANG MINHYUN? ---

"Ooppss, almost forget one thing. Wait." Claimed Minhyun when Jaehwan was still busily screamed in silent for him.

Jaehwan blankly stared at the wall in front of his bed when he was unaware of Minhyun's lips touching his, he sucked it a little bit. Jaehwan didn't react at all. Even after Minhyun retracted that kiss and back to his previous position. He closed his eyes, didn't wait for Jaehwan's reply.

"Good night, honey. Sweet dream!"

Realization crashed on Jaehwan too late. Jaehwan startled then abruptly touch his lips with his right index finger. Felt somehing was lingering too long on that place. Something that had been missing.

But dumbly he ignored it. He got too far into his mixed feeling.

He was fool, just plain fool.

--- TAKE ME BACK TO MY OLD LOGICAL MIND AND NORMAL FEELING, MINHYUN HYUNG!!! ---

He was screwed, definitely.