Malfoy Child

Journal Entries

September 11

Things seem to be settling into some kind of routine for us. This is the end of the first full week of classes this year and we've survived it somehow. You actually do great in classes. I'm glad you can handle yourself in them because it does make things a whole lot easier, but it also upsets me.

Were you ever a child, Draco?

I have to wonder. A four-year-old should not be so . . . self-possessed? Under control? I can't figure out how to explain it. You're so well behaved and I suppose it's a good thing, but you just seem far too grown up so much of the time.

It bothers me that I have to remind you that it's ok to get dirty. It bothers me that I have to remind you so many times that it's ok to interrupt me when I'm working if you need something or just want me to play with you.

You're learning, but it's the things that a four-year-old should already know. Heh, it's not like I exactly knew these things as a four-year-old either. But you have so much more control over yourself than I ever did. Hell, more control than I have now.

You've been trained so very young that you have to be perfect at all times.

Me? I was trained from the beginning to know that no matter what I did, I'd never even come close to adequate, let alone perfect . . .

September 12

Your stuffed dragon finally got a name today. You named him Wuffle. Why? Good question and one I don't have an answer to. I just know you took forever trying to come up with the perfect name and it ended up being Wuffle.

I gotta admit you're adorable when you're asking where your Wuffle is. But now I'm sleeping with two dragons every night, one of them named Wuffle. When did my life get so strange . . .

September 13

Oh gods, Draco! This just had to be the best day ever since we got back to school. I took you out flying today. It felt incredible to be back on a broom again! For you, too. I took you up with me, and you had a blast.

You want to know what else was awe inspiring? As a four-year-old, you showed complete and total trust in me. I don't think you were ever scared once up there in the air. Despite all the crazy stunts I was pulling.

Snape would absolutely kill me actually, if he'd seen me up there with you. We spent hours in the air and by the time we came down again, I could even pull off the Wronski Feint with you on the broom. Heh, kind of scary even for me to be thinking about it now.

But neither of us was scared up there and we'll have to do it more often. Think I can get away with taking you to practices with me once they start up? After today I think I can probably get away with it . . .

September 15

I can't believe I actually wore Slytherin robes around the school. I think I've got everybody in this school a little bit confused. Hell, I'm confused. I don't particularly care for being the centre of attention all the time, but I guess I'm kinda getting used to it.

It's strange though. I'm going around school with this cute little boy (yes, you!) and I seem to have everyone's support there. I think I'm not the only one that has trouble resisting your four-year-old charms! But then, here I am, Harry Potter, the Gryffindor Golden Boy, hanging around the Slytherin dorms every other night.

A lot of students have been pretty supportive, but I'm not stupid. And no, I don't feel like hearing you tell me otherwise, even if it is just in my head. Anyway, I know a lot of other students are simply afraid of me again. But what am I supposed to do about it?