This feeling is called love

Did I fall in love with him?

Mo Guanshan P.O.V

All I could was run, I ran as far away as I could. After what seemed like forever I had to stop to catch my breath. I felt so foolish for running out like that. I couldn't think anymore, and it seemed like everything I knew was gone. Nothing made sense and at the same time, it was clear.

I could hear the cars rushing by, I heard the muttered voice around me, and yet for some odd reason, none of that mattered. It didn't bother me, it was somewhat nice. looking up at the sky as all I could was smile. Not fair.

It was starting to rain, it seemed like the sky was sad too, and as much as I wanted to scream, cry, or whatever I couldn't. No fair, that the sky could cry so easily and I couldn't.

I had to find someplace to get out of the rain and try to clear my mind. Nothing was making sense to me anymore, I was torn. If I didn't care for what he did, then why did that bother me? Why in the hell did I run? Why me? Why was this so painful?

The rain was refreshing and calming, I walked aimlessly around town as it seemed that was all I could do, I wasn't really going anywhere. I didn't want to go home yet, and I definitely wasn't going back to his place. None of my friends were at home either, so I just walked all the way to a park.

Sitting down on a swing that was soaked by the rain, but I didn't care, I was already soaking wet as it was. I just sat there, looking at my shaking hands. I slapped him, I yelled at him, I hated him. He was using me, I knew this. So why the fuck did it hurt so much.

"No more," I whispered to myself. He wasn't going to use me anymore.

No matter how many times I said it in my head or out loud, it hurt more and more. What the fuck did he do to me?

He saved me from She Li when I made the mistake of trying to take someone else place in a crime. I was told it was for stealing something, however it was much worst. He helped and so did those two assholes. He got me a few odd jobs too, which yes I hated. He was always staring at me, the jobs paid well. He was doing so much for me, and there were times it was to see me suffer at his command.

My head was hurting now, and no matter how many times I went around and around with this, it wasn't helping me. I needed to get going home now, I slowly moved to get up off the swing. My hands trembled, my legs were slightly weak and I wanted to pass out.

I didn't get far from the swing when I collapsed on the hard, cold, wet ground. Just great, how did I let this happen. I did my best to sit up and lean again the pole that was near me. Looking up at the sky more, as it felt like I was crying now.

"I don't care...I hate him...I .." my words slurred and my eyes started to close.

I was in love with him...wasn't I?

He Tian P.O.V

Calling for him over and over again, it wasn't working. No matter how much Jian Yu and Zheng Xi Kept asking me what the hell happened, I didn't know. I told them, we went shopping after school, walked to my place, I told him they were coming and a few others. He threw a fit, then he cooked.

"A girl did come to the door, she was selling bracelets and all that stuff. I was interested but I leaned over to whisper in her ear to see if she could make something special." I answered, " She said yes. Once we got done I went to the kitchen. Red seemed pissed off over something and I don't know what, he even slapped me."

"So he got jealous? Or overreacted like always." Jian Yu put in his smart-ass comment.

"I don't know why he's so upset, It wasn't like we were kissing or anything." Leaning back as it didn't occur to me that it was raining outside till the lights started to flicker.

"Do you think he made it home?" Zheng Xi asked.

Getting up as I called his house number, that may have taken from his phone one day. The damn thing rang forever, and that chicken shit was still not picking up his phone. "no answer. I'm going to go look for him."

"We'll come too."

I was going to smack the shit out of him once I found him. I didn't know why, but there was something about him and I could see it. He was very interesting.