Illegal Love

A/N

Hey guys, I feel like I owe you guys an explanation as to why I haven't updated this book in a couple of months.

So as I've already said, this book is a role play a friend of mine and I did. The friend was actually my girlfriend at the time. We dated for about three weeks. We started dating at a camp, getting together two days before my 14th birthday, which was a Thursday. I've known her for 5 years, I figured she'd be a good girlfriend.

The day before we got together she was all over this guy, saying how I had competition and how she's gonna go off and date him. At this point we were practically dating, minus the asking part.

The day after we got together was perfect, she didn't leave my side, we talked constantly.

The next day we spent most of the time together that morning, but in the afternoon, she started running off and ignoring me. I know that sounds so clingy, but she's a really clingy person. So she avoiding me was a bad sign in my eyes.

The next day was my birthday, we hung out all morning, laughing talking. We were together all afternoon. I figured everything was normal, the day before was just different.. But, that night I got called to stay back and talk to a few of out instructors. I was gone for about an hour. When I found her she was coming off the top of the, mountain, yes there were mountains. It's the Arbuckle Mountain Range. She was with the guy from the first day. She and him were giggling, I ignored it and went up to her, she just brushed me off and continued talking to him. I was really offended, not only was she brushing me off on my birthday, which really hurt, she was brushing me off for the guy she claimed and sexually harassed her and was stalking her. I went to my other friends, trying to seek comfort.

Something you should know about me is that I have separation anxiety, social anxiety, abandonment issues and a lot of other mental disorders (I have a fear of physical contact beyond what I initiate, and a fear of intimacy, but those don't matter here). So this gave me a panic attack.

The next day was Friday, the day we went home. I was very thankful for that. She pretended like everything was normal. Then a few minutes before we got back to town, she had the nerve to say I had been ignoring her. So I got mad, obviously. I told her all the times she had hurt and ignored me that week. She teared up, which made me forgive her. We were okay when my mom picked me up.

We were fine for the next two weeks, then on a Friday, i think, she invited me over to stay the night, and help her babysit. I said yes, who wouldn't, more time with your girlfriend. The evening was pretty normal, we ate pizza, watched a movie, and that was it. Then we went to her room for the night. We started this role play. I remember it started innocent, then when it hit the first dirty scene, which I replaced with the spanking scene, I started to get nervous. Eren was topping, but I knew that she would want something. Considering she was the dominate of the relationship. Then we actually ended up switching role plays, Levi was dominate. She put her hand on my upper inner thigh. Pressing down at every 'thrust.' I'm panicking at this point, she's touching me in an intimate place and with out my consent, those are two of my biggest fears.

We ended up kissing, I was panicking. Eventually I just told her, "let's go to sleep." The next morning we had breakfast then we sat down to have a conversation that would ruin our relationship. She told me that she had almost accidentally given someone a blowjob, on my birthday. The guy she had come off the mountain with, that's what she was doing up there. So I broke up with her.

I thought I was done with her, so I started this book. Then she started going to my school. That and writing this book brought up those bad memories, but my physiologist lady said I need to work on those emotions, so I need to continue this story.

That's all for today, the next chapter will be up some time later this week! Bye!!