A little girl grew up different:
-she was the only girl in the family
- Gender had defined her for life
-she wasn't her brother
Many times family fought on who go to spend time with her. If they got stuck with her, they complained.
As a kid she was told to be her self
However....
If she slept:lazy
Having fun: Annoying
Played dress up: Ugly
Made one small mistake: Worthless
Played pretend: pathetic
Art she created: trash
She didn't feel important. Everyone she had been friends with chose her brother. Family? Chose her brother.
If he did wrong, she was blamed.
They told her to grow up.
Now that she is grown up, she's told to be more like a kid.
Confused about everything, she had enough.
The names still ring in her head:
+Worthless
+Pathetic
+Idiot
+Crazy
+Annoying
+Sorry excuse of a kid
+Ugly
But she did what she thought was best. She put a brick wall around her heart, and promised to let no one near. Only to care for herself, she was the only one who existed.
Now? She is a grown woman, and she lives by herself. She still hadn't let anyone in her heart. Does she regret not letting anyone else in her life? No.
