Help Me

She will be loved

SAV'S POV

I did not think I would ever see Cameron after that night. Why did he not come after me that night?Did he even love me in the first place? My veins were boiling with anger. I did not notice i was crying until Cameron finally spoke up and said," What is wrong with It? I can not have an emotional sex toy." OH I AM ABOUT TO GO SHARKEISHA ON THIS PRICK!!!

" Just take me to my room." I spatted at him. He never loved me and all my feelings for him have gone away. I just had to believe it myslef. He rolled his eyes and grabbed my arm in a grip so tight i think my arm was loosing feeling." I am sorry this had to happen to you." he said. I looked into his chocolatey eyes and saw anger and sadness." Yeah sure you are. If you actually cared you would have ran after me that night. You would have saved both of us from this postion we are in now. I knew I was just another piece in your game. I kept telling myself 'He does love you' I guess I was wrong this whole time. After that guy took me that night and you did not show up i started to self harm, I stopped eating, and could not even look at myself. And now you just called me "It" and a "sex toy" how do you think I felt about that!?!? That is what I thought now leave my room I do not want to see your pitiful face right now." SLAYYYYYYYYEDDDDDDDDD

And with that he left my room. I started unpacking and I heard a knock on my door. It was Cameron's dad." Here is your schedule for him to you." he smirked. Ugh let's get this over with

Monday: my room

Tuesday: rest

Wednesday: your room

Thursday: movie night

Friday: My pleasure

Saturday & Sunday: your pleasure

This is disgusting! SO anyway today is Tuesday so I get to be by myself. I flopped on my bed and wrote in my diary.

Journal Entry:

Why can't someone love me and not use me? Cameron does not love me and my dad does not love me. Hell I could be dead and he would not care, he would probably praise then and give them all his money. Can i not have my own superman? Like in fairy tales, my own Prince Charming. Can someone just tell me I am beautiful and know I am safe in their arms? I guess that is to much to ask for. I want to wake up in the morning knowing I won't have to cut or get used. I want soemone to call babe and love them with all my heart. Cameron might not love me but some where deep in my heart that same spark is there and is still light. I prayed he would come for me and save me. I counted all the days he did not come and I was broken. I was just a lonely girl int his big world looking for her lover.

After I wrote that last sentence i had tears strolling down my face. I put away my pen and pencil and went to bed. I heard someone come in my room and take something but I was to lazy to get up and get it back. I fell into a deep,dark sleep. Let's see what God has planned for me.

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I have decided to write longer chapter and with the help of my beautifel friend Natalie I have some good plans for the chapters. Until next time

LUV YA BEAUTIES!!!