i had been happy for a year. my dull world became bright when he came. i opened my heart and destroyed the walls i made and let him in. i risked everything i had for him. i did it all in the name of love.
we were happy back then. i was happy back then. we shared our thoughts, we shared our memories. we did all the things as one. we were one, from all the littlest things to the biggest ones. i was afraid to fall, but with him, i gained confidence. i was confident he wouldn't leave me. i was confident that we will pass the trials that life has to offer.
until one day, with just a blink of an eye, i grew tired. maybe, just maybe, i fell out of love. i was tired of the nonsense. i was tired of the bullshits. we fought everyday. we fought every night. i went to sleep with a heavy heart. i smiled at him and assured him that everything's okay but it's not. i pretended to be okay but i'm not. i hided my feelings from him. i hided the truth from him.
little did he know i cry everyday at night. he never know that everyday, i'm in pain. and he didn't ever know that everyday, because of our fights, i'm one step away from him. i tried so hard to rescue myself. so, i started to build my walls again. i started to create a gap between us but he's brave. he's brave enough to move heaven and earth just to break the ice and the emptiness within me. yes he's brave but he's not persistent. he's not consistent.
i gave him so much "one last chance." i was patient till then. i waited and waited and waited. and once again, i grew tired. i grew tired and i gave up. i gave up not because i don't love him anymore. it's because reality hit me so hard i realized that i need to let go, that i need a break. he too realized his faults and he came back but it's too late. my heart now is cold as ice. the pain in me numbed me. i gave up our once "strong relationship." i gave up the idea that we will be together till the end. i gave up not because things are hard but because i'm done. i'm fucking done.
there are certain things in the world that can be fixed but cannot be mended. there are times that you need to give time to yourself than the others because at the end of the day, you will realize that no one's got your back but yourself, that at the end of the day, all you have is yourself. for me, lovers always come and lovers always go.
so guys and gals, if you met the person whom you want to treasure your life forever, don't leave them. don't take their love granted because some opportunities are only given once yet regrets lasts for a lifetime.
