Forest Snow

I've been walking for the past few days now. The cold snow feels like a thousand knives piercing my feet. The wind is making my whole body numb, I don't know how much more I can take. I'm out of water, i'm out of food, i'm out of everything. I just want to find my way out of this forest. With every whistle of the wind, I hear an echo of someone I failed. I left them behind to be out in this forest, now what? What did I do it for? What made me feel like I was supposed to be here? How much do I even remember...No can't think of that now. I need to keep moving forward. All the birds must've migrated, not a sound in the forest. But wait, where are the wolves and bears? Fortunate for me, I guess. God, it's getting colder by the minute. I just want out of this forest, I want to be home. What day is it even? What day..what day? The snow..wait faint jingle bells..Christmas? Right, right I remember, Christmas day. What am I doing out in this forest on Christmas day? I should be home. Ah! My headaches getting worse, I have to keep pushing forward. More snow is falling, yet the snow on the ground isn't getting thicker. Why aren't I wearing any heavy clothing, was I not planning on being out here? Jesus, these snowflakes are burning my skin. My neck especially burns, what is happening? No time to worry, I can feel I'm almost there. I can see her now, Tiffany, my girlfriend. I try calling out to her to get inside, but nothing is coming out. Are my lungs frozen? No..it's my throat, it hurts too bad. Oh well, turns out she's not even there..guess it was a figure of my imagination. Still..I can't get her face out of my mind. She was crying..why do I feel like I was too? I remember..my families faces all around a table..all staring in confusion..then..oh God..I remember. I surprised her with a family dinner..but..but she had bad news? What bad news! God damn it, remember! The news was..this wind keeps getting in my face! Push forward..when I see her i'll get more memories. Why are my memories lost in the first place? This headache is killing me, damn it to hell! I heard a small chuckle just then..what is this place? Wait..she told me she didn't want to see me anymore..and she broke down. So did I. I-I ran out in rage, and they all looked at me. Then what? Then what! Push..forward. Whats that light? No..whats that fire? I can't take this headache! I have to sit on my knees for now. I ran out..the rope on the tree stump for the tire swing for my little nephew..I went out in the trees. Who's that man in the far distance? Wait..i ran out in the trees..i made a noose. The man's walking closer, just who is he? He's wearing a robe. Wait..the pain on my neck..I..I killed myself. I remember now, I killed myself.

So you remember? The figure telepathically said. He's reaching his arm out to me..the white light is bright.

Paradise.