Jorteo

Chapter 3(pt2)

Jordans pov

That night keeps playing in my head over and over and over again I've gotta no sleep in the past 3 days. Everytime i close my eyes and lay day the flashback of that night plays and everytime it plays i see specifically remember the look in his eyes.....that wasnt him somethings going on he was letting out anger that wasnt from what he said it was from........i know mateo. But until i find out what the hell is going on the wedding is off.
Im laying in bed with melo(fully clothed,fair amount of space) at the moment because weirdly when hes around me the visions stop and i actually got some sleep. When i awoke i awoke to several texts from mateo.
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-Jay please answer me

-im sorry for what happened that night

-im ready to explain what happened
Please just meet me somewhere i dont care where just please

-Can you atleast text me back i miss you

-you see me fucking texting you AMSWER ME

-WHERE ARE YOU!!!!

-jordan......idk whats going on with me...im not myself anymore text me back
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I didnt know whether to answer or not he was really scaring me....i told him to meet me at melos house because i knew melo would be here along with lavar,zo,gelo and the girls so he wont try anything. I then parked my car in the garage so it wouldn't seem like i was staying there and that melo picked me up or something.

When he got there me and him sat at the kitchen bar and talked. "Baby i just want to start of by saying im sorry" said mateo "mateo i dont wanna hear that i want to know what the hell is going on" said i (m-"well that night i snapped on you...that day i was with the boys at dai house and his girls fixed us some drinks she looked kinda sus i almost didnt take the drink,but i did and everysince i drunk that drink i havent been feeling like myself....i-i feel like there are two of me one who wants to do terrible things like hurt people he has his own voice...then there is me the normal me who would never hurt anyone unless its over my wife or my kids" (J-" mateo....im sorry but i cant marry you while your like this, i just cant put me or our kids in danger" when i said that, the look was in his eyes again....his pupils enlarged his eyes got deeper and the twinkle in his eyes faded fear struck me as the voice also returned "WHAT do you mean you cant marry me" he said as his hand clentches very tightly onto mine "I MEANT WHAT I SAID" I say running to the opposite side of the kitchen grabbing a knife but he continues to walk towards me "mateo i will stab you back away from me" melo hears the yelling and come out to the kitchen to see me with a knife and mateo close by. Then out of no where mateo lauches towards me and i allowed myself to push the knife into his wrist making him wince in pain and then.....his eyes returned to normal and the twinkle was back he looked me in my eyes and stopped wincing. He saw the dripping blood then the knife in my hand and immediately knew that the other half had took over again.

I dropped to the floor cry dropping the bloody knife. Mateo comes down with me crying also because of whats wrong with him, he grabs my face gently and kisses me but i dont kiss back. " Mateo i know this isnt you fault but i cant-...."gco.  "I understand.......bye jordan i love you and im sorry, i will eventually come back around....when im better" mateos says as he kisses me one last time, i kiss back. Then he just walks out of the door. I still sit in the same spot in the kitchen floor not knowing when i would ever see him again, i cry and cry my shirt covered in his blood, knife still in my hand,melo stood watching. I ended up blacking out on the floor but when i came to i was in clean clothes and all cleaned up laying in a bed.

These were not my clothes they belonged to a guy i supposed melo maybe. I guess i will be living here until mateo is himself again it is too dangerous to return home or even into the city where we stay. I never thought i would see the day i would have to stab the love of my life to protect myself from dying.....