Remembrance

Chapter 4: It's not easy

I unfortunately woke up a few hours later, I was looking up at the ceiling of the Presley's home. I turned my head and saw Elvis sitting and reading. I just wanted to close my eyes and fall back into a deep sleep. I remembered all of a sudden why I was so tired. I had forgotten, but it all came rushing back to me. 'no Anna, don't cry. keep it in. Don't. Go home and then cry.' I looked back up at the ceiling and knew I had to do just that. I slowly sat up and placed my feet on the floor. I was looking down, how was I supposed to look at anyone after what happened. I took a peek up at Elvis and his eyes told me everything I needed to know. He hadn't slept since, and he had probably only been  worrying himself. I looked back down. He came over and sat down next to me, placing his arm around me and tugged me into his chest. "Honey, how are you feelin?" "Better. Thank you, but I really need to get home" I forced a smile up at him. He just looked right on into my soul, he knew better. He kissed my forehead. "Honey, I'll take you home" "okay" I stood up and fixed my hair and makeup while he got his shoes on. He took my hand and guided me to his car. I slipped in and looked down. I so badly wanted to cry, but I just couldn't. He got in and Elvis held my hand. We arrived to my house after a painfully quiet ride, as I was opening the door he pulled me back. "Honey, we needa talk" I knew we did, but I didn't want to. "Not now E, I can't" "We have to Kay.." I was so exhausted. How could he expect me to want to talk after everything. I just wanted to shower fifty times and sleep for years. "E, tomorrow okay?" "No, Kay we have to" "E! Honestly do you think that I really want to?! I am exhausted. Not today." I coldly looked into his eyes. I was so angry and sad and hurt. "fine. Bye." He let go of my hand and faced back to the front, and put his hands on the wheel. He was gripping the steering wheel making his knuckles white. I looked down. I was not about to apologize. "bye" I  got out of the car and slammed the door. I stomped into my house and heard his engine fire up and roar off. I couldn't believe I had just said that to him. I had a right though. I didn't care in the moment though, I just wanted to sleep. I slugged up to my bathroom and ran the water. I pulled out my pajamas and took my bath. I scrubbed and scrubbed, causing my skin to get real red. I finally decided I had gotten most of Mystery Man's germs off of me. I changed into my pajamas and fell onto my bed. I didn't fall asleep until three in the morning, and at that point I had cried so hard I just wanted to die.

The next morning I had felt a lot better. I knew I needed to call Elvis and talk to him. Since I was feeling better I would be up to talk now too. I got up and gussied myself up, and ran down the stairs. I saw a note from my parents saying that they would be out all day. It was better that way anyways. I made some toast and put strawberry jelly on it. I was going to enjoy my morning. Before I knew it, it was eleven.. I needed to call E. He hadn't called all day and that was unusual for him. I skipped to the phone and rang up his number. "Hello?" I heard over the phone, it was his mother. "Hello Gladys, it's Anna Kay!" "Oh hello honey! How are you? Feeling better?" "Much better, thank you so much for everything, is Elvis there?" "Oh honey he just went out, you want to come over and wait?" I kind of did, but I decided I would just call later. "Oh, no thank you. I will just call later. Bye Gladys!" "Bye honey" I hung up the phone. I contemplated what to do until I tried to reach E again, and finally decided I would go to the park. I got my things and my sun hat. I strolled to the park, enjoying the nature and people. I finally arrived and started to head over the bench that E and I usually sat in. That's when I saw it. It was Elvis, but he wasn't alone. There was a girl sitting next to him. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. He actually was doing this, and after I told him to tell me first. He had promised. I was not going to let him get away with this. I quickly walked over and came up behind the girl. "Ohhhh, Elvis and ... I am sorry I don't know your name?" I put out my hand. Elvis was just staring blankly at me. "Hi, I am Natalie" she shook my hand. "Hi Natalie, well isn't this great, you, me and Elvis?" I turned to Elvis. "When were you planning on telling me? After or before you told me you didn't want to ever lose me?" He looked down. "Well? I would love to hear, or does it not even matter anymore?" he just sat there. I could not believe this. "Goodbye E, Natalie.." I walked away. I didn't want to see him ever again. Ever. I ran home and slammed the door so hard the house rattled. He had promised me! Within an hour there was a knock at my door. I looked out the peep hole and saw the cheating, liar I so badly wanted to punch in the face. I didn't answer. "Honey I know your in there. Just let me explain, I can I promise" how could he be saying that? Explain what? That you are cheating on me? I kept quiet. "Baby, I swear I wasn't cheating, Col. told me it's for publicity. That's all it is baby." I opened the door. "JUST FOR PUBLICITY? YOU DIDN'T THINK TO TELL ME THAT?" "I tried baby, yesterday but you didn't want to talk, remember?" I stared at him blankly, I was appalled that he was blaming this on me. "E, do you honestly think that would have been a good time?!" "Well I don't know! Don't yell at me, I am trying to explain!" I sighed, I didn't know what to say anymore. "Honestly Elvis, maybe this isn't gonna work.. I am no match for her, and maybe we are just growing apart.." I looked down. 'Anna, what are you doing?! Don't be an idiot!' I ignored my conscience. "what?" He looked at me. He brought my chin up, making my eyes up to his, "Honey, don't do this." "I am sorry Elvis, I need a break" I started to tear up. I think Elvis knew I was right, I needed time, and after Mystery Man and now this, I just felt like it was all too much for one relationship to handle. "I promise honey--" I interrupted him, "Don't, don't promise me anything." He didn't know what to do. We had been together for a year about now and it was all ending. I grabbed his hands and pulled him to me. We hugged, it felt like forever and it was wonderful. We had shocked each other again. Finally he let go, and kissed me on the corner of my lips. "Honey, I love you. I still do, I always will. I promise you that." "E, you should get going" I looked down. He stepped off my doorstep. We were still holding hands. Finally our fingers slipped out of each others. He turned his back and I knew that was the last time I was going to see him as my first love. I was losing my whole world, I was suffocating and there was no breathing again without him.