Letting Your Eyes Go

I'm asking for your help, I am going through hell, Afraid nothing can save me but the sound of your voice, You cut out all the noise.

Sleeping in my bed feels like the five years I have known you, warm and protective, you and I didn't know it, but we were falling in the same direction. My dreams are revolved around your touch, the way you used to hold me, instead of a simple "hello".

When I wake up, it's your voice that brings my alarm to sing, the smooth and soft vocals of a blossom tree; calling my name. But you are not there. I look around to search for your vocals, but you are miles away. Your voice is Beethoven creating his fith symphony, bold and flowing; the passion we have, the looks you gave me. Because you love me.

When I sit up in my bed i expect you to be there, your face staring back at mine, lovingly, wanting me; ready to start a new day with me. Because you love me. My covers are your warm and protective body, not wanting to let go because of all the dangers that come with every day life.

I go to my mirror half asleep and look at the face I have become, I want you there next to me, telling me how much more beautiful I am than God's creatures. Because you love me. But that seems like a distant memory, even though it is a dream. My eyes reflect my soul, my deep love for you, but you can't find it, your still searching. Through the mirror I can see directly into your soul, I see it move, change, reflecting the colours of your personality.

When i'm washing my face from a nights sleep it reminds me of you, you refresh me with your goodness reminding me of your purity. Your the one who wakes me up from a deep sleep, who cleanses and nourishes my body. Because you love me. You wash my skin back to it's natural colour, not covered in make-up, but my natural self, just me, that's how you like it.

Changing my clothes helps me realise how some things change like the flowers, seasons even people. But to me you changed with your maturity, but you never changed who you were. Everybody knows your name, they shout it in the streets, shops, bars and cafes. But they will never say your name like I have. I can say your name and your whole world would light up with joy. Because you love me. But when you said mine, it was nothing special.

My hair you could say is my identity, you knew it was me, through rain or shine, up or down, you knew it was me all along. As a wrap my hair up to the high heavens it's you keeping me safe, saying what I want to hear, your soft touch, your voice, stays in my head, like my hair. You said you liked my hair natural, after you said i should dye it. Felt like I made silly decisions, but you were always there for me. Because you love me.

When I put my make-up on, it's making me hide the fact that you need to be with me, so I can be strong again. You used to say I didn't need make-up, but boy, how you are wrong. It covers the tears I cry at night because I don't know If you feel the same but you are always there the next day to make it all better, unlike make-up. It covers my skin with a new pallet, it's not me, I could be any one, but you still saw me. Because you love me.

You re-fuel me, you give me energy that I didn't have, you made me smile even though I refused, but then I broke out into a million gleaming smiles, because you were there. You are the eye to my tiger, the fish to my ocean and you are the only one I need. Sometimes I like variety to what I have in my morning, but you are my essential to live, i would be lost in my own brain without you. And you would give me light to my life. Because you love me.

But what really makes me lost is your eyes, your variety of colours, some people say it's weird some say it is unique, but I think they are beautiful. I look into your eyes and I see your love and compassion, I see the sadness you have faced, the tears you have cried, they are scared neatly in you eyes, they could never heal. Your eyes fill me happiness and comfort, I have finally found you. But your eyes haunt me, they haunt me.

             I have been searching for your touch, Unlike any touch I've ever known.

Sometimes you may be misguided, lost or isolated, but remember i'm always here, like you are always there for me.

You may not know how much you mean to me,

but I could only give you something in return that is close to me,

more than my love.

Even though you have not said you love me, I will keep dreaming, as your eyes will keep haunting me.