Harry POV
I was sitting on my bed on a Saturday night, having had to cancel my plans with Louis. She had to go to this stupid school thing for her sister, so we had to postpone our "movie date". I smiled, remembering the conversation we had last week about "Clockstoppers, a horrible 2000s movie we happen to own on VHS and you should totally watch with me." I was texting Zayn, since Louis was supposed to be out until 11... It was almost 11 now. I opened up my laptop and pulled up Instagram. My phone was being repaired and the poor excuse of a replacement couldn't even download instagram! I got myself onto the page of Louis' Instagram to see there were quite a few new pictures uploaded. I clicked the most recent (some sort of text post) and nearly choked.
""I know this sounds bad but honestly I just really want to do the do with you. But alas, that will most likely not happen. I mean we can't even hang out tonight. Much less be able to do the do. And also awkwardness doesn't really help the situation""
Okay, think for a second, Harry. Could she be talking about anyone else? No... And i mean, its been established that we cant hang out tonight... the conversation i was having with her ealrier was sort of awkward considering she was basically cancelling on me... oh my god. I quickly snapped a picture with my piece of shit phone and sent it to Zayn.
Zayn Javaad Malik you will not believe this i cannot breathe my face is on fire im blushing so hard
soon enough came a reply:
Wait what oh my god no way
I continued to flip through the pictures on Instagram until...
I just. I just really want. You. Here. Like. All the time
That is so cute. She's gotta be talking about me, right? I sent that one to Zayn, too.
I came across another one...
""Currently laying in bed wearing the bæ's oversized jumper because I stole it over the weekend and who can resist wearing the person that they love the most's oversized clothes. I'm also listening to pink Floyd which makes me feel great.""
The picture was one of her legs, you can see the bottom of the oversized sweater she's wearing, one that we both happen to own because her mothe rbought them for us. I took another pictures and sent it to Zayn, too.
[[ I just keep finding more I'm so hot and blushy what even
That's so cute you have no idea. You have to tell her you like her she obv likes you back!
Are you kidding me, what if she rejects me?
Harry Styles, who could resist you? ]]
I had liked Louis for a while now, I'd known him for over two years now. I only realized earlier last month that i was already completely head over heels for her and it was too late to do anything about it. She was just so perfect... That's it, i'm going to tell her. I'm gonna confess my love to her right now. I hesitated a while, my thumbs poised over the keys.
[[ Hey
Hey babe
I love you
I love you
I just really love you and i wanted to make sure you were aware
I am aware I love you and you should be aware too. What makes you say this suddenly out of nowhere?
Um, i kind of never stop thinking about you?
Well i kind of never stop thinking about you either
I also tlak about you non stop, you can ask Niall. Or Zayn.
I try my hardest not to talk about you all the time because i feel like id be annoying people
Well i probably do annoy people but i just don't give a damn. Because I love you. Sorry, I keep saying that.
No, its okay, I love you too. ]]
And then the conversation came to a stop. Great. No, this was not okay. I needed an answer, I've waited way too damn long for this.
[[ Im clearly in an odd state of mind but i know what im saying and i know what i mean. tell me what youre thinking.
please.
I'm thinking that what we have is special and I dont want to ruin that
oh. I feel like if you had been looking at me, you wouldve been able to pinpoint the moment when my heart shattered into a million pieces.
okay.
Too many things end negatively and I dont want that
yeah
Trust me ive thought about this too many times and its hard because i love you so much but I overthink everything
no, yeah its fine. youre fine, im fine, its all good.
im good.
its all good.
are you sure? It doesnt sound all good
no im good. im fine. ]]
I needed to get out of this house or i was going to end up mentally and physicall distroying myself.
