I told myself I wouldn't do it again, but I let myself down once again. I try so hard yet I fail every time. It's so addicting, just like him, he made me do this. I thought I would help me forget, it did, but not for long, the horror just came back once I came back. Every time I come back, I miss it, just like how I felt when he was gone.
He lied to me. He said he would never leave me, but he did. When ever I go to visit I can't even get to the car before o start to cry. I decided not to bother going to see him because if I cry before I get in the car, who knows what will happen if I see his gravestone.
That's why I take these drugs to forget, but as they wear away, it all comes back in a matter of seconds, these drugs betray me just like him, but I take them over and over again because I miss the feeling of being free of these nightmares and memories of that night. The drugs took me to a fantasy land where my mind is lost and not flooded with the voices that taunt me a night, whispering to me, telling me that's is my fault he is gone, that's it's my fault my fiancée, Min Yoongi is dead.
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FanficAll she wanted was to forget the night that took him away, but even if she forgot it wouldn't make her better. The trauma made something odd happen, it I would now be an ongoing struggle for her to figure out how to adapt to it.
