Miss Potato

First Day Of School : Part I

Today's the first day of school and I'm feeling both anxious and excited 'bout it. I'll be meeting new people, seeing new faces, and dealing with diff. tons of shit every school year brings. Among those shit I have to deal with is my social anxiety which is back at making my life dreadful...again.

It's a really good thing our class starts at noon so I'll have time to prepare my things, study, and to calm myself because I'm having my anxiety attack. To be honest, I almost had a breakdown before going to school. While I was already going out of the door I felt like crying because of the heavy load of anxiety I'm feeling. Wow, I never expected to get this much anxiety today. During the summer I've thought that when this day comes I won't feel anxious, maybe a little, but I'll be feeling more excited and confident. However when the day comes near, anxiety started to find it's way back to me, I tried stopping it, but I failed.

Dad drove me to my new school. A.M.S. isn't really that far from our house, I can even just walk to get there, but since I'm a lazy potato that won't happen. After a 5 minute drive, we're here. I got out of the car and Dad told me he'll fetch me at 5:30; and now, I'm here infront of my new school. I felt my knees shaking, my face and palms getting sweaty, my heart pounding really fast. I have a strange feeling that everybody's looking at me, thanks a lot anxiety.

Upon entering a gate I passed trough a hallway leading to the school covered ground. A woman, whom I think is a teacher, maybe? Approached me and told me where to go. She pointed to the school's canteen where other students were. I thanked her then went on my way there.

It's weird that the more person I see, the worser my anxiety gets. Right now, I just want to disappear from here but ofcourse I can't, I have to face this. I'm already feeling very weak and I feel like breaking down but I can't do that. I want them do think that I'm friendly and they don't need to feel awkward with me but with what my anxiety is doing right now, isn't helping me to achieve my goal.

When I reached the outside of the school canteen filled with benches, the students greeted me. They told me that they're gonna be my classmates.They look more like Grade 10 students than Grade 9 students, to be honest, so I was surprised to find out that they're my classmates. Oh, I forgot to mention, the boys aren't there only the girls are.

Upon being greeted by them I felt somehow relieved that they won't ignore me because I'm just a transferee. But then, thoughts came zooming through my mind. The thoughts that maybe they were just friendly because it's the first day of school, at this moment everybody's looking at me and judging my looks, the boys would be making fun of me and they'll try their best to get on my nerves. (These are just thoughts, ok?)

I sat on the bench while looking at my classmates and listening to them telling stories about their summer vacay and some other stuffs, including kpop.-.
A woman approached me and introduced me to her nephew, who was also a transferee. Her name is Emma Ashton and she got a bit of brown in her hair, dark brown eyes, and a lighter complexion. Her Aunt talked to me and told me some things about her. I glanced at Emma and from her I can also see that she's feeling shy like me.

The bell rang at 12 and everyone assembled at the school's covered ground. I'm really confused on what's happening so I just followed what everyone's doing. One of my classmates approached me and told me that she had once seen me at Kumon. I was surprised because I don't actually recognize her. After about 5 minutes, a group of boys walked near to us and lined with us. I'm guessing they're also my classmates. These boys are really tall and upon seeing them, one may think they're already Grade 10 or college students. Everybody was so 'effin noisy. However, only me, Emma, and another guy are silent.

After almost 10 minutes of being silent and looking around the students lined up. We're going up the stairs, section by section.

Our room is in the 3rd floor. I like the place where our room is placed because it's like a terrace with grails and outside the grails are trees and a view of the sky. The room wasn't that big and isn't too small either. However, upon sitting there I felt encaged in a box. Maybe it was because I was just adjusting to my new enviroment.

I'm covering my mouth with a handkerchief, sat at the back beside Emma, both of us aren't talking and instead just looking around and observing. I looked at the guy and he's also quiet like us, I guess he's also a transferee. Our classmates are friendly and are greeting us and welcoming us. I can't help being awkward. It was indeed expectation vs reality.

Expectation:friendly & outgoing
Reality : Shy af & can't talk

W👏 O👏 W👏

Then after about 10 minutes of being silent in a noisy crowd and looking around and feeling extremely anxious the teacher came. He introduced himself as our class adviser and our other classmates seems to know him already but for our(the transferee's) sake he introduced himself. He's name is Teacher Liam and he would be our adviser and science teacher.

The day started with Teacher Liam discussing us the rules and regulations of the school, which the old students already know, so some other students aren't paying attention to him. They just started to pay attention when the teacher told us that we'll be having a quiz after the discussion. Upon finishing the discussion, Teacher Liam did gave us a seatwork then a quiz. I perfected them both and so as Emma. In fact, all of us perfected it.

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Ok so you guys might be thinking that this looks like as if it's incomplete and you are indeed right. There would be a continuation for this chapter becoz it's hella long, so yeah, go read the next chapter and get outta here!(of this chapter, NOT this story lol)