Dark Love

¿¿Awkward??

    I yawned and rubbed my eyes before opening them slowly and sitting up, trying to be as quiet as I could. I looked over at Adam who had his legs wrapped around a pillow, I shook my head and stood up. I walked over to the bathroom and pulled my pants, boxers and shirt off and turned the water on in the shower. I stepped in, the water hitting my head and rolling down my body. I ran my hands through my hair, pushing it back as I lay my head back. "Man does it feel good to shower" I closed my eyes and turned around, letting the hot water hit my back. "Yeah it is nice is it not" Adam chuckled, leaning against the wall of the bathroom "You do know the door has a lock right?". I immediately jumped a bit and grabbed a towel, covering my lower half  "and you know it's not nice to stare at a naked guy?" I could feel my face turn red. He stepped closer and put his hand on my cheek, looking down at me, straight into my eyes "We have use to take baths as kids, why so shy all of a sudden? There is no reason to hide your body". I bit my lip and looked away, my heart racing "Adam we are older now and both guys, and we are both straight". He made me look back at him "And what if we weren't straight?" He looked down at my lips, moving forward slowly.

     I was so nervous and embarassed that i couldn't move. His lips eventually met mine and I closed my eyes, my legs felt like giving away and I felt like I was melting. I didn't know what to do, he had been my childhood friend and I didn't know he liked guys, I know I don't or atleast I dont think I do. There is no way I could be into guys and yet I have these feelings that I don't understand. I wanted to run, to get my clothes and leave yet I stood there, letting him kiss me and to make things worst I kinda liked it. I slowly started leaning up, kissing back slightly before I realized what I was doing. I pushed him back, out of the bathroom and locked the door, pressing my back against it.

    Adam started knocking on the door "Come on, im sorry I know I shouldn't have kissed you like that it's just that....well remember that I wanted to tell you something? Well that was it.....i've liked you for quite a while now and seeing you like that I just....I couldn't help myself and I know you are probably mad and want me to leave you alone but I can't. I know it's not my place to do so but that Henry guy also likes you and im not gonna let him get to you please open the door." I got changed and opened the door "You are damn right it's not your place to try and protect me, you may be my best friend but that is it and ......im not even going to think about what happened because ....because I don't even know what to think" I grabbed my back pack and walked out of the house and ended up walking to school.

    Adam didn't show up to school and I just said he was sick whenever someone asked about him.  I got to my biology class and sat down, not realizing Henry was there until he spoke. "So about yesterday, look im really sorry I let things go to my head and I just feel really bad about it, is your friend still mad?". I shook my head "Please just don't mention it ok? He shouldn't even be mad he did the exactly same thing" I said, mumbling the second thing. Henry nodded and just looked away. Things were awkward but were only going to get worst.