Unwanted 9th Grade Feelings

11-5-17

7:57 pm
Please don't do this to me why am I still worth it?
*scribbles on paper*
8:19 pm
I think I effed up big time? Stick Kid keeps patting my head and as he was leaving I said "A hug would've been better!" I think I just made him creeped out by me? You see, for 5 hours, I thought head-patting felt good? Mr. Kinkster said to stop patting me or else I'll get too satisfied? Dang, I'm so glad Frybig was expelled because he said he'll shoot up the school in front of the cops. I won't miss his loud Bluetooth speaker blasting porn noises with the highest decibels. I gotta remind myself:

Things to do tomorrow:

-Ask Billy if he seriously sent a picture of me in 3rd period to Stick Kid

-Try not to cry in front of everyone because people at school treat me like

-Actually pay attention in class

-Question if this journal is becoming a bullet journal

-Get my grades up

-Explain to Stick Kid that I can't spell his name, which is why I refer to him as such in this journal and in my contacts

-Ask him why he doesn't hmu (or is he waiting for me to?)

-Question why I can't breathe normally

      -Question if I got my breath taken away whenever I think of hi,

      -Question if I just got breathing problems in general

-Ask Huggergirl03 if idk I forgot

-Finish the hw to get out of tutoring because I don't need help and TallSophKid is there

This is how I write and I don't care.

My dad still can't accept the fact that I write with all 5 fingers. 

Someone please hug me. HUG ME. HUG ME TIGHT THAT YOU CAN'T FEEL MY BREATHS. I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN TAKE ANY MORE. *cries some more and rants like a baby while saying that idc about my dad's problems with his in-laws*