Uncovering the Inside

Unnatural

LYRA'S JOURNAL
             

My name is Lyra. I don't have do much about myself. I know it's weird to have a journal at the age of 17 but keeping one makes me feel in control of myself and in everything else I do.

I have a really complex life. To start, my parents died in an accident when I was in middle school. Would I even call that an accident? I don't have friends either. I used to have friends, even enemies but they died in an accident as well. Again, I wouldn't call that an accident either.😖😖

Those"accidents" were kind of my fault. You see, I'm not normal. I'm not special either. I have a secret that only God knows exists. I have unnatural powers and abilities. I know it sounds silly and amazing, but it really is not.

I have the ability to control any kind of element that exist. Laboratory elements, magic elements, you name it. The problem is, that I can't control this. I run out of control of my powers every time I get, like have super strong emotions going on.

My family, including my sis, died when I felt really angry. I "accidentally" flooded our home entirely. It got really scary, I was scared coz my sis hid that I had these abilities and I lost it. I killed them. I was in middle school that time and I had to live with my grandma, who was incredibly rich.

In junior high school years, there were a bunch of bullies, but I had friends to defend me. One day, a group of jocks and cheerleaders decided to lock me inside the lavatory with them. They told me they do this to me coz it was simply because I existed. I was super angry and frustrated and depressed that time. I set the frickin school on fire, so many innocent lives gone... Because of me. I was cursed with this.

This year I plan to not interact with anyone except teachers or staff to avoid any more incidents to happen.

I noticed a drop of tear drop in the page of my journal by just writing that. I felt horrible and guilt. I wish I can get my powers to stop. I only wanted a normal life. if there is one thing making me feel normal is YouTube. I watch way too many drama and gaming videos, especially jacksepticeye and Markiplier, they remind me of how special I am...even
Though I'm not even important to the world. I only cause trouble.

Authors note
               Guys, I can't believe I'm about to publish this. I don't know if I'm gonna continue this though.