The Darkness in us

culprit

I thought the darkness was a light
Every color was white
Am I colorblind?
Or I just can't tell wrong from right
I hide my emotions in plain sight
So people look into my eyes
And they find I'm empty inside

Noone looks at the empty streets
Of my heart
Nor listens to the silent weeps
My world's shattering inside
But I don't even dare to speak

I chose a path to take away
From judging eyes and hateful stares
All I wanted was a friend
Yet something inside of me
Wanted more than that

So I ran away from my emotions
Endlessly
Chose a road that I can't even see
Thought it was the light
Blinding me
But it was only the bleak night
Surrounding me

I ran and ran
And thorn bushes cut my skin
I tripped on rocks
and scraped my knees
I became so lost in thought
That I didn't see
The vines slicing my throat
And as I was trying to set free
I fell into a black hole

But it wasn't wonderland I fell to
But raging fires that burned me alive
And demons stabbed my heart
With knives
Hellhounds tore my flesh and bone
I became the nothing
I had once known
But this time more literally

Yet with my last dying breath
I gathered all my powers and screamed
Why did I have to die this death?
Why did you let go of me?
You could be stopped me ahead
Before I took this road
And tried to flee
You're a liar and a thief
You broke my heart to pieces
And pretended you cared about me

You said I was your entire world 
And then you said your world was crumbling down
That I was your queen
But now you've thrown away your crown

I wish for you to rot in hell
To have raven claw out your eyes
And earth worms eat the skin you don't shed
And the venom you gave me
Would multiply a thousand times
and be injected in your veins

Forgive me,
Sometimes I get lost in this train of thought
But don't worry I won't do
What I've sought
For you deserve a worst fate than this
I hope your life becomes a living hell
You get lost in an abyss

You'd be shunned by society
So you'd crawl on your knees to me
I'll make you kneel on your feet
And pleed
Then I'll just leave you in your misery

I'm going to be alright
My heart will eventually heal
But this abyss you'll never leave
So next time you think of hurting me
Listen to this
But no need
Since now your the ghost of my past
The anguish in my screams
The coldness of a caress
The bitterness of my tears
You're the culprit and the mess
At least now from thee
I am free