conversion therapy » jensoo

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you're going to
conversion
therapy.
i couldn't believe
that she went this far.
i would rather starve
than go to therapy.
but i thought about it.
would it help me?
if it did, then maybe
just maybe
i could be normal.
i could like boys like
i'm supposed to.
maybe i would
be good enough for
my mother.
maybe rose will take
me back as her
best friend.
maybe people at
school will love
me again.
is that what i want though?
apart of me does.
but another part is
longing for something more.
an adventure.
a real adventure.
i looked at my mom
who told me to
dress up and
get inside the car.
i did what i was told
and sat there quietly
looking outside of the
window. we were
sitting in a cloud
of awkwardness
until my mom spoke
up.
you know i'm
doing this because
i care about you, right?
i looked at her and sighed.
i'm sorry i'm a disappointment.
she decided not to speak up
and kept driving.
when we arrived at
our destination,
she told me to get out of the car.
i followed her into the small
building and studied it's features.
it reeked of brewed coffee and
cinnamon. i scrunch up my nose
as my mother talked to the person
behind the counter. he looked at
me with a smile.
room 1698 ma'am.
my mother gave him a small
smile as she found the room.
she pulled me inside as i gulped.
there was a woman around her late 30s along with other girls and boys. but there was one who specifically caught my eye. the weird part was,
everyone had a smile plastered
across their faces.
you must be the newbie. please
sit down. you'll be cured in no time.
my mother smiled.
thank goodness, doctor shan. i
expect some major improvements on
behavior. i cannot and will
not have a gay daughter.
i closed my eyes and sighed. everyone looked at me with pity, except for that
girl. she looked down while fiddling with her fingers.
i'll be back for her in three hours
my mom then left and closed the door behind her.
is she gone? one girl asks as
doctor shan looked around, nodding.
what is going on, i thought.
sit down. but please do introduce
yourself. a boy says while looking at me
with piercing eyes.
i..im jennie kim.
everyone smiles.
don't worry, jennie.
this isn't exactly a therapy for
conversion. because you believes
in that crap anyways?
doctor shan chuckles.
sit down next to jisoo and taeyeon. girls please raise your hands. the two raise their hands, smiling.
okay good. now, you guys could socialize and eat. just please don't make a mess. thank you.
i sit down next to the
two girls doctor shan told
me about.
im taeyeon and this is jisoo
i smile, introducing myself to them once more. they were both so beautiful, but jisoo caught my eye even more. her visual was amazing. her long, purple hair cascading down her shoulders like a waterfall. she looked amazing.
we're gonna be great friends, i thought.

a u t h o r ' s n o t e :
oops this is rushed.