The Right Way But The Wrong Way🥀💔

Sorry😫.

I Froze🤢Lost Of Words. Speechles😷. Confused On Thoughts. Completely Blank. I Didn't Have NoThing To Say To Either One. I Didn't Have A Car So I Had No Way Home. I Had Money So I Could Call Me A Cab. I Grabbed My Phone And My Clothes And Left Out The Door. Brandon And Curtis Both Screamed "JOYCE" I Just Ignored Like I Didn't Hear.

When I Finally Made It Home I Cried That Whole Night. I Didn't Have Nobody To Talk To,Call,Text Or AnyThing. I Was Completely By MySelf. I Didn't UnderStand Why Curtis Never Thought To Tell Me😩. Or Brandon. I Was Embarrassed🤦🏾‍♀️. I Couldn't Sleep So I Stayed Up To 10 That Morning. It Was An Weekend I Didn't Have School. Brandon Called Me. Curtis Called Me. It Was Back To Back. I Didn't Answer For Neither One Cause There Both Pathetic 💯. I Felt My Stomach Starting To Hurt. (An Unusual Feeling). But I Didn't Pay Attention To It. I Felt As If Nobody Loved Me& EveryBody Was Gonna Lie To Me. I Felt That There Was NoThing Left For Me In The World. My Stomach Started To Hurt Again. I Still Didn't Pay Attention To It. My Mom Was A Nurse So I Wanted To Wait Until She Got Home To Ask Her To See What Was Wrong. But Ab 2 Minutes Later In The Middle Of My Thoughts I Ran To The BathRoom And Threw Up😩It Was So Much Of It!😔I Started To Think If I Should Call Curtis Cause I Knew He'd Come Help Me. Or Call Brandon,But He'll Probably Beat Me🤦🏾‍♀️😔So I Just Cried. My Mom Was Taking To Long To Get Home. So I Called My Big Brother Sam. Crying I Said " Bro I Need You,Where Are You😩" He Said "Suss You Good" I Said "NO JUST GET HERE."So I Waited Until He Got There. When He Got There He Heard Me Throwing Up So He Ran Up To The BathRoom. I Said "Take Me To The Hospital" He Picked Me Up And Carried Me To The Car. He Drove Past The Speed Limit Until We Made It To The Hospital. The Hospital Wasn't Crowded So They Took Me In Soon As I Got There. They Gave Me 2 Shots. And A Pregnancy Test Since I Was Throwing Up. The Doctors Told Me To Pee In The Cup And Bring It Back And They'll Give Me My Results. I Went In The BathRoom And Did As They Said. I Prayed I Wasn't Pregnant I Didn't Want Any Kids. So When I Was Done We Waited For The Doctors To Come Back. I Was Shaking Cause I Was Scared Cause I Knew This Wouldn't Be Any Good Results. A Few Minutes Later They Came Back. The Doctor Said "I Hate To Be The Bear Of My Bad News. But I Have Good News And Bad News." I Instantly Started Crying Cause I Had A Feeling I Knew What It Was. I Said "Proceed." The Doctor Continued And Said " Well Mrs.Joyce Your 100% H.I.V Positive." It Felt Like My Soul Left My Body😩😩😩I Was So Hurt. He Continued "And Your Pregnant"💔That Hurted Even More😔💔"If You Want Treatment Come Here Every Other Month And I'll Be More Than Happy To Help You." I Knew That This Would End Badly. So I Left Out The Room. Scared And Tears Rolling Down My Face. "Take Me Home" I Told My Brother. We Left The Place And Got Into The Car. "You Okay?."  "What's Wrong,What They Say." My Brother Repeatedly Kept Asking. But I Kept Ignoring Him. We Arrived To My House. I Got Out The Car Didn't Say Bye To My Brother Or AnyThing. I Went In The House Laid Down And Just Cried To MySelf.

I Woke Up In The Middle Of The Night Throwing Up. When I Was Going Back To My Room To Lay Down SomeOne Was Knocking At The Door. I Didn't Wanna Open It Cause I Didn't Want To Be Bothered. But It Could've Been SomeOne Important. My Voice Was Completely Gone. "Who Is It." No One Responded. "Who Is It" I Said Again. "Curtis." I Paused For A Minute And Said "Go Away."
"Joyce Open The Door I'm Sorry." I Stood There With My Hand Close To The Door Knob Unsure If I Should Open It Or Walk Away. I Decided To Open It. He Came In. He Already Knew Where My Room Was, So He Followed Me There Can I Explain." I Wanted To Say No But It Came Out As"You May".. He Said " Joyce I Didn't Tell You He Was My Brother Cause I Knew You Wouldn't Talk To Me And I Really Wanted My Chance With You" He Sounded Sad As If He Was About To Cry So I Just Held Him. And Kissed Him. I Said " I Got Some Things To Tell You" He Said " Can It Wait" It Really Couldn't But I Didn't Wanna Tell Him AnyWays Cause It's Embarrassing. So Me And Curtis Slipped Up Again👅😩💦! I Tried To Tell Him But He Just Kept Going. When We Were Done He Said "Now What Did You Have To Tell Me"😔😔💔I I Knew I Couldn't Tell Him Now So I Just Smiled And Said."It's NoThing"🙂