A Remorseful Reminiscence

Trust Me.

I already accept things
Also of what it brings
But I just can't avoid the heartaches
Those awful words you've spat
It hurts deep down a lot
Yes, I'm not perfect
I also have bad attitude
Do you really want to slap that in my face?
I need your embrace
Trying to get more of your praise
But I've received negative words instead of that
I'm a brat.
Idiot.
Stupid.
Selfish.
Unlovable.
No Respect.
Unkind.
Lazy.
All of it and many more I've done enough!
I always get that
And you know I'm not that tough
I'm trying my best
But you always make me hopeless
I want to understand your side
I'm becoming weak
I wanted to shriek
Also your one of them that makes me change
I talk less
I'm always not in the mood
Sometimes aloof to people
Your making me feel scared
When I'm with you
Add also my sleepless nights
I'm stress
Sometimes I wanted to give up
But that's not the right thing to do
You know who you are
Even if you just notice me by my mistakes
Even if my heart breaks
I won't forget to make you feel loved
Even when I sobbed
In tears and pain
No one can blame
Your just doing that for me to  discipline
So I'll just listen
I know it's my fault
I didn't apply what you've thought
I'm sorry.
Don't worry.
Maybe I'll just try my best again
But please wait till my heart regain
And then I'll start anew
Then I'll be as good as you

Ended: 9:49 PM
March 4, 2017