Falling to hard and falling to fast

It's REAL but it seems as if it's a DREAM

I wonder each day where my dad is. Did he leave me because of something I did or something my mom did? All I want is to see my dad I feel like my life is not put together because he is not here with me. I only have one memory of him that I can really remember. It was me and my dad and my grandpa, if I was with my dad my grandpa was with us most of the time. So I was really close with my grandpa and dad until the age of 2, a month before my birthday. I remember he bought me this big bear that was about as big as I was and he said to keep this for as long as you can. I have had that bear since then and haven't forgot about it. That the only thing though! And I had 2 years with him... I think.

"Angie!!"

"What mom?"

"I need you to watch your sister for me please while I go to the store. She is sleeping right now so when she wakes up I need you to give her a bath."

"How long are you going to be gone because I don't want to be home for a long time. I have plans at 3."

"I will be back by 2, I promise."

I seriously was not happy about staying home watching my sister, I get enough of her everyday with my parents let alone it being just us 2. Lila can be a handful at times, but I do love her and wouldn't trade her for anything.

I sat around watching T.V waiting for Lila to get up. It was kind of boring alone, I needed some entertainment and she is wild when we are home alone. It was 1:45 and we had painted our toes pink with flowers and they looked exactly alike. Our house was dead silent and there was a noise that sounded like the door opened and so I walked over to the door and opened it, looked out the door and my moms car was not in the drive way, I started to worry more and more. I heard foot steps in the kitchen. I walked in the kitchen and no one was there. I didn't know if it was me or if I was actually hearing things. I got my sister just in case I was hearing things and someone was in our house. I swore that the lock on the door was locked. I turn around and there is some guy standing in the hallway. 

I scream and grab Lila and run!!! I run out the door with the man chasing me with Lila crying in my arms. Running as fast as I can with some man I don't know chasing me and my sister crying, I can only think of how I can get my sister somewhere safe. The man is at least 15 feet behind me, I put my sister down and said don't move. I turn around and punch this dude right in the face. Struggling very much I am slowly being put in a arm lock. All I hear is...

"Angie stop moving I am not going to hurt you, you don't know who I am, at least I think you don't."

I am still trying to get away from this freak, so I don't have a choice but to kick him where the sun does not shine.....

I was dropped and I grabbed my sister ran back home with her while the freak was on the ground. I grabbed my phone and told my mom to come home now. 

I locked all the doors in the house shut all the windows and blinds and went upstairs into the bathroom locked that door and sat in the bathtub. My sister finally stopped crying, but still had a hulk grip on me. I wasn't going to call the police because this man knew me I just hadn't known him, which was awkwardly weird. 

I heard the door open and I called my mom to see if that was her and she had came upstairs to look for us, we opened the door and I gave her the biggest hug with my sister in the middle of us. I started to cry telling her what happened, freaking out. She calmed me down and we didn't bother to call the police because I told her the guy had knew me and you would think that would make you want to call the police more, but I had this feeling that I knew him to, but just couldn't think who it was. 

I peeked out of the window and saw the man sitting on the sidewalk on his phone. He put it down... then all i heard was *ding ding* The man had put his phone down and my moms phone went off!!!! Did he get her number or is it a convenience that my moms phone had gone off just in time for it to look like he was texting her.

"Mom who is that?" 

"Your aunt."

So it was convenience, at least I think it is. She might be lying...

With Lila in my arms I sit quietly waiting for something to happen. *Knock Knock* I hear the knocking on the door, and my mom gets up to answer it. It was someone she knew because she was making conversation with them. I get up to go over there and peek around the corner...

"MOMMMM, THATS THE DUDE THAT ATTACKED ME!!!!! Shut the door and run."

"I am so sorry Garrett, she doesn't know about you yet."

The look that my mom had on her face was a face of anger, I didn't know if she was angry with me or the guy at the door.

"Angie, this is Garrett..."

My mom hesitated for a while.

"This is your dad."

I froze I didn't know what to say or think, I looked at the man... I mean my dad and tilted my head to the side, feeling hurt, sad, and mostly lost. I repeated what I had going on in my head out loud. "Where were you all my eight years of my life?"

"Angie now is not the time for that." my mom had said

"No, he can answer it, I mean he hasn't seen or spoke to me in eight years, whats the problem?"

"Angie, stop it."

"Dana, its ok, she can ask me. I don't have a real explanation, but I know that I will make up every second I have missed."

"No, it's no the same you missed 8 years and there is no going back... EVER!"

"I'm sorry I had a bad situation."

"There is no more worse situation then not being with you daughter for 8 years. When I needed a father, I didn't have one to be there for me."

"And I will make that up to you, I promise."

"Mom does this man not get it?"

"Angie I think your getting to worked up about this just go to your room and chill."

"Whatever, but just to let you know I do not like this freak in our house, he left for a reason, and we all know its something better then his own family."

"ANGIE!! Go to your room now!!  Sorry Garrett she is... well angry, as you can see. I don't understand why just now you come back, she kind of has a good point. You left with no warning and never tried to talk or see us at all?"

"I don't know why I left.."

"I honestly don't like you here!"

"If I could, i would like to catch up with you and Angie?"

"I will think about that, bye Garrett, and don't ever come in our house again!"

I heard the door slam shut, I walked out of my room and looked my mom straight in the eyes and stared at her for like 10 second then walked into the kitchen to get myself a bowl of fruity pebbles. I had this feeling that my mom was hiding something, but i just didn't know what? She walked into the kitchen and didn't say a word, which you would think that she would have a story to explain...

But no she was speechless!