Hey wattpad world im back with another one hope you feel the truth with this its heart shattering here you = /
Well i dont know how to start this one but i do know what say i made huge gigantico mistakes i wish i could take back i lost a girl who i dated for seven months without even a minutes notice and then two weeks after i gt a new gf but i feel like ive been a douche to my ex i guess you say i acted like a jerk and im really sorry i never ever wanted to do that to a girl like her she was perfect and i fucked up so yea im a douche bag with a side of jerk with that and now my ex hates me to my core and i dont know how to make her be my framily again if i cant do it than i wont be complete if there are any ideas id like you to comment for me if you can and i know this isn really a story but its something i need to say this is important i say it also a little message to sarena m lockett S.M.L small medium large is what she likes say that stands for its adorable and funny but she hates me so i guess you could say this an apology to her Im really sorry for being the way i was and i hope you can forgive me and that you dont hate me no more if you cant than its what you want ill leave you alone but i just wanted to tell u i had no right to say those things i said i was angry im in a messed up spot right now i lost my grandma iv never lost anyone that close to me like she was so yea u say it aint an excuse but it really is iv known her too long for me not to act like i am and plus it was on your b-day party i lost her and it was a few weeks after your b-day party i lost you but then it was another five weeks i lost you to much to where i think i cant get you to not hate anymore (starts to cry) i didn give you the whole reason ive changed like i have its because i wanted to be a better bf to you but i went to far and changed to much i was readying my self for the day i got to be with you and i blew it i guess you could say i threw my chance away with all the dumb shit i pulled on you the retarted blaming and arguments and the way i treated you even though i dont get jealous i get scared i may lose you but i guess i already did that i hope you can forgive me for all of it if you cant find the will to forgive i understand i wouldnt forgive my self either but im taking a middle of the field halfcourt long shot whatever you wanna call it im taking a big chance with you to forgive me it may not pay off but at least im not letting you go i never will ill always love you:)
~CJSL #20 #Framily 4 life until death #love ya #cameronilama #2014-Forever loyalty
