why do we have to hide who we truly are? i just want to be able to be who i am without fear of someone making fun of me. i just want to be able to have a crush on them and then tell them i have a crush on them without fear of consequences (being made fun off for who i like). in this world we live in everyone is trying to conform to society's standards and expectations, especially at my age , high school and middle school. but i don't want to conform. i want to be my own person and have my own style, my own opinions, my own life. i don't want to be held back by fear of society and my peers. i'm even scared of what my own family will think of my decisions. my friends that i should be able to trust with anything have different views but that shouldn't stop me from telling them how i feel. just because someone has different opinions and views doesn't mean they can't respect yours. society is like this monster eating me inside out, telling me i should be more skinny, i should have perfect clothes everywhere, i should wear makeup, i should be more feminine. but that's not me. i want to be authentically me but i can never achieve that as long as i listen to society and follow their standards. it's torture trying to fit in. you come home exhausted each day, you flop on your bed and just sit there, silently screaming.
that's why i write here. it's a good place to release my emotions. it's an outlet. a catharsis, perhaps.
