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The Seventeenth Chapter

The Seventeenth Chapter

Sehun never felt so light his entire life when he finally told her those three words. But he knew that the worst was yet to come as he saw a flash of grief on her eyes. She didn’t even look surprised.

“I was afraid you’d say that.” She took away his hand that was holding her left cheek and bit her lower lip. She looked like she was in conflict with something inside her mind. “I can’t return your feelings, Sehun. I’m still.. in love with my older brother.”

The light feeling he had for a moment was instantly replaced with bitterness. “You shouldn’t be in love with him, Daesom. It’s not –“

“Acceptable? It’s a taboo? Do you think I didn’t know that? I can’t stop feeling this way like how you can’t stop yourself from falling for me.”

Sehun didn’t like where this was going. But he couldn’t just give up on her. He knew that he still had a chance and he won’t let go of that hope. “Don’t tell me you can’t love me, too, Daesom. You can –”

“But I won’t.” She firmly stated and stood up. “I choose not to. I care for you, Sehun. But I won’t go that way.”

His chest tightened because of the pain. Why was everything so hard for him? He wanted to cry. He wanted to hate her. But he didn’t have the strength nor will for that. “Why, Daesom?” His voice was broken as he whispered. “Can you at least tell me why?”

“I need to go.” It was her only reply before she took steps towards the front door.

Sehun abruptly stood up to stop her but his head started aching again. He winced as he tried to find something to grip on before he could collapse. He made a quick mental note not to drown himself in alcohol again.

He felt a pair of arms supporting him and guided him to lie down the sofa. He thought that no matter how many times she had hurt and pushed him away, having her close still brought comfort to his soul.

He managed to grip on her hand tightly before he closed his eyes. He had no intentions of letting her go. “Please stay.”

“Sleep, Sehun.” Daesom told him softly. “I’ll stay for tonight. Just have some rest.”

“How about tomorrow?” He asked like a little child. He was afraid that if he let himself fall unconscious, she would disappear.

“Just sleep for now and don’t think of anything else, okay?”

Although Sehun tried to stop himself, he eventually fell into slumber. The alcohol already took its toll on him and sleep was the only option his body had. But he never let go of that hand he was holding like his life depended on it; he just hoped that she won’t be the one pull away.

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When he opened his eyes that morning, a dreadful feeling quickly flooded him. What did he expect? Of course she was gone. She said she cared for him, but that wasn’t enough reason for her to stay. That was why he had been afraid of telling her just how he felt. Because he knew that the moment he did, she would leave.