I was walking through the park , the mission was over , the job was done but i was still shaking from it . ' Oh god what have i done ' I whispered . The scene replayed over and over in my mind driving me insane . The blood was still on my hands , I had tried to save her , but the black widow aim was a kill shot , no messing on the job just kill . I began to cry softly, When I looked up he was in front of me an arrow aimed at my heart . I looked into his piercing blue eyes and shut mine tight ' I'm so sorry ребенок ' I whispered before closing my eyes tight and awaiting my death , god knows I deserve it after all I had done , after what I did .
Hawkeye Pov
I watched her awaiting the perfect moment but she seemed too distracted and then she began crying . I was beginning to reconsider killing her , was she the right target had I made a mistake . She matched the physical description perfectly but wasnt the black widow oppose to be a cold hearted killer who enjoyed killing and did it expertly . So far she looked like a woman full of grief and regret. But I had seen what she done , that poor child , i couldn't watch after she shot that poor little girl . I had left and waited for her here . I leaped down silently when she looked down , my arrow was poised at her heart , ready to strike the killing blow , but I couldn't fire , I don't know why but i couldn't kill her without knowing the full story . I looked at her in her emerald green eyes , she was breathtaking but I knew she used that against men regularly , she closed her eyes and said im sorry and then something in russian , I really regretted not taking that russian course now . I took out my tranquilizer gun, i fired it at her and I caught her as she fell. I carried her back to my room in the hotel I was staying in . I tied her to the chair and walked into the kitchen to make some food for me and her to eat when she awoke and if she didnt try to kill me.
When I came out from the kitchen with two bowls of pasta she was awake and looking around franticly ' Its ok im not going to hurt you unless i have to ' I siad softly , her eyes went wide when she saw me , she began to relax when her eyes settled on the shield symbol on my uniform ' Well im guessing shield doesnt exactly like me ' She spoke in a thick russian accent . I smiled ' I guess they don't but dont worry im not sure if im going to kill you , if that makes you feel any better ' I smiled trying to make her know that i was just joking around . She looked at me suspiously but she spoke again, I was guessing she liked this witty game ' Well that makes me feel brillent , but seriously just kill me already ' I was taken aback did she not want to live anymore. ' So eager to die are you ' I asked curious . ' Well your not here for simple chit chat are you ? ' She asked sounding confused . ' Maybe im here for information ' .She laughed ' Your information is very incorrect im nearly insulted , the black widow never gives away anything , torture me all you like , it will be fun ' . ' Ok your right , im not here for talking i was sent to kill you ' . She smiled ' Then get on with it ' She spoke softly . ' Why do you want to die so much ' . She sighed and i could see the tears creeping up in her eyes , she gulped ' You saw what i done tonight , i killed an innccent child , i deserve to rot in hell , ive killed hundreds of people , why wouldnt i want to die ' . I already knew all of this , but their had to be some reason why all of a sudden she wanted to die . ' Natasha i know your not telling me everything ' She winced at me using her name . ' I worked for hydra , when I killed the child it all came back , the memorys they kept from me , They brain washed me when i was younger , trained me to be a killer not to fear anything , not to care who died , but when i killed the child it fell apart , the grief was too much , i now regret my whole life . Im ready to face justice for the crimes i have comitted , only jail would never be enough ' . I was taken back Fury never told me she was from hydra , I felt sorry for her , it really wasn't her fault , the child wasn't either , that was just bad luck , the child had come into the room with her father's shoes on , Natasha must have thought it was a guard and shot before looking , a natural responce . I sighed and i saw she was crying , i kneeled down to look in her eyes ' Natasha are you truely sorry ' . She nodded sincerly crying , Fury was going to kill me ' Then im offering you a job for shield , you want to erase all the bad you have done , then accept the offer , ill back you up so don't mess up ' She looked at me stunned , it was so clear she hadn't being shown an act of kindness in a long time . Her ledger was dripping red but she was regretting it and she wished to make up for it , it also wasn't her fault . Their was also something about her and told me this will be the best decsion of my life . She went to speak but i shook my head dismissing her . I untied her and handed her a bowl of pasta before sitting down and eating mine . We sat in slience , I hoped i was correct about this .
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Hey guys.
I really hope you enjoyed it and ill work on the next chapter sometime , i have a ton of other clintasha fanfics i want to upload so please give me some feedback and please talk to me about clintasha as none of my friends like it . Yes i am ashamed .
Well see ya guys
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Natasha and Clint say bye too <3
