Fear

Me

My name is not interesting ! You just need to know who i am . Some people would say they need to know my name to know who i am , but thats not right ! I know that,and the most of you know that too.
I am a 17 year old girl! My age is just important for you to understand the cruelty. The cruelty of what ?You will see ! I could tell you about my school, my friends and my family, but all this is not interesting . I would not say they don't love me or something, it is just not relevant for the story i am going to tell you!

I am the one , who never said something! I mean i talked to my friends and family , but when it was really important i said nothing. Not even one word ! I was shy , trapped in my feelings and thoughts. I not even perceive what was happening to me. One single word might helped me out of this situation, but nothing comes out . No! Not even a tiny little word!
The one person who did that to me is the only one interesting in this story ! The one , who showed me my truly fear! Not death or spiders. NO its not a simple fear like that ! It was the fear to live with that, to live with the situation between me and him. To live with the fact, that i will see him all day in school. To live with that and relive this moment , where i said nothing, where this one word could helped me!