A Day To Hold You..

Pray

"why are you acting so weird?" I sipped some coffee waiting for a reply.

"I suppose it's time you knew..."

"knew what?" I was scared of what was going to come out of his mouth.

"there's a reason you keep on getting sick...When you were at the doctors they discovers that you have cancer.." the room fell silent, even the birds outside stopped chirping.

"You've had it for such a long time that they say you only have 2 months to live." I watched as Louis' eyes poured out tears. My sight started to blurr.

"why didn't you tell me before? How could you be so selfish!?" I was so mad. How could he keep this from me.

"I-I, I just didn't know how..I wanted to spend every minute with you and just love you for what time we have left." I could feel his arm searching for my waist.

"get away," I stormed off into the room. I called my doctor to talk about it but he said theres nothing i could do but hope. What else does he want me to do, pray? I tried that when my mom had cancer the she died. Theres nothing holy about that. I think it's been a week now, I stay laying in my bed, looking at the ceiling. I haven't moved a muscle. My body began to get skinnier for I haven't been eating. I could see that I was also affecting Louis too. He has the most frightening dark circles and you could his sharp cheek bones even more. I got out of bed and looked in the mirror. I had to change. As I walked to the bathroom to shower Louis stared at me in astonishment. If I was going to die I mine as well make the best of my time left.

"can we go somewhere today?" I could barely recognize my own voice.

"Of course love" he smiled, finally being able to hear my voice. I got into the car and drove to the beach. I laid a cover down and lay on it.

"come here" I rolled over to Lou and started crying, thinking that soon I will never be able to see his face made me cry.