The Moments I'm Missing {2}

4.

Luna

A lot of things changed for me last night, and most things didn't but i know that one thing is for certain is that my baby is the most important thing that i'm fighting for. I awoke last night in James bed but left it, I no longer wanted to feel the pain. Or maybe accepted the fact I didn't know what the deal is between James and I.

I gathered my things, and left his room and started to look for my own room. Til i knew what i need and what I want.
I don't want to feel pain. Or to feel alone.

I just want the loyality my mothers has.

I want to be something more.

I want a happy simple life and I can't do that with the life i'm living in.

Not even James can help me out of this one.

It's been a long day.

Mom was mostly at the horse race, trying to double the fake money that is is going to invest. I deciced not to go to this mission, instead I stay home.

away from the danger.

as far away from my child.

The whole day I spent for my self, I invested it on the baby.

making list of names I like.

reading some baby books.

walking around the house, to set up baby proofing the house. even though that might make mom made but i don't care because it isn't about her.

the whole day is set.

and no one is gonna ruin it for me.

but little did I know that James will.

As everyone got back from the Horse race. I was in the living room, writing when everyone entered the house. I really didn't look up to see who walked in and I really didn't want to see James' face.

"How was your day alone Luna"

My mother asked me as she sat next to me on the couch.

"It was great, it something that I really need Mom"

was all I said to her as i continued to write down more names liked.

"What are you writing?"

My mother asked with curiosity

"Just some names."

and with that James paused for a moment

"Baby names?'

Was all James had to say but no one said anything. Because it obvious that I was writing baby names. Mom kinda knew that things weren't okay with James. So she decided to leave to her office. Leaving me and James alone.

"Are you mad at me or something?"

was the first thing he asked me.

"what do you mean?"

"Why are you so different all of a sudden"

"I don't know what you mean James"

"What happened at the party Luna?"

"Nothing happened at that party, now if you excuse me, I'm busy."

"Luna?"

"What,James?"

"What is happening between us."

"What do you mean James? nothing has every happened between us. We aren't together, we just slept together and accidently got me pregnant, well news flash James. Just because something happened between just once isn't gonna change things. Last night I finally opened my eyes and saw the truth. That we are all just playing a endless deadless Game were we get hurt. But I can't let that happen to my baby and im going do everything possible in order to do that."