Bound by Law

Bound by Law || 31- Unbelievable Concerns

'And I guess she was right'

His words rang through my head countless times. It repeated in my head the entire night yesterday, even as we got home and ate dinner together.

At first, I didn't understand what he was trying to say and it only began to settle after a little while. I took his words as a turning point; he accepted me as his wife.

We didn't talk after that. We didn't talk when he woke up to go to work or when he came back today either, but I understood the silence.

It wasn't a horrible or painful silence. It was anything but.

I wish I could tell Jai that I accept him as my husband.

In my mind, I had accepted him as my husband but I just wanted things to be like this–where we were accepting and understanding of each other.

It was peaceful and luckily, there were no drastic expectations of me from him.

He wasn't mad at me for being a housewife—mainly because I did casual work where I got to play with an animal and got paid for it — and because I wasn't just sitting at home and doing nothing.

Sometimes I would try and make time to go out with Chelsea or Gavin, though I rarely saw the latter nowadays.

Jai had told me multiple times that I could work at his company, but I didn't want to. Not only would it be hard work but I knew I would become tired and too lazy to cook or look after myself.

And in a marriage, that was never a good sign.

Besides, I was doing pretty well for myself anyway. I was keeping myself busy in other ways that didn't involve just work and meetings.

There was one thing that kept bothering me about marriages in general.

It was the one expectation I could never fulfill–consummation of our marriage.

I could never, ever do that.

I shut my eyes tightly, both in disgust and embarrassment at the thought. My mind quickly drifted to Jai.

His kindness and charm was growing on me and even though we had bad times, now, there was only good and he made me laugh a lot.

He was also very handsome too. And with a beard, like he was rocking nowadays, he was super hot.

That 'h'-word made me cringe a little in embarrassment. Calling Jai that was something I thought I'd never do.

I giggled to myself as I spaced out.

Seeing Jai now–seeing his rare smiles and chuckles and his dimple that rarely appeared—it made me happy.

Now every morning I woke up with a smile. Things weren't going well for me internally, but everything externally was going perfectly for the first time.

My relationship with Jai had grown and was normal–something I never imagined would happen.

I owe everything to you God.

I sighed in content but froze, looking down at the book I was staring at. There was something abnormal which I had been noticing for a week.

Every morning, there was a certain warmth to my bed that I wasn't used to–but when I woke up, no one was there.

I never paid attention to it until now, and began to panic as I thought of different scenarios.

It's hopefully nothing...maybe I'm imagining things.