Hate that I love you

Chapter 1

Boyish.

Tomboy.

Tibo.

Lesbian.

That's what I am.And I'm happy about it.

But most people are always criticizing so easily.

We,homosexuals,became the outcast in this society.Rejected because of showing our true colors.But you know what?I don't care at all.As long as I'm happy,my life must go on.

Hindi ako katulad ng ibang tomboy na maikli yung buhok o panglalaki yung gupit.I still have my straight and shoulder length hair.I'm also not a cross dresser.I still wear clothes like in those straight girls.I usually wear faded jeans,shirt,hoodie and converse shoes.I also wear cap sometimes.Lagi nilang sinasabi na mukha daw akong holdaper pero tinatawanan ko lang sila.This is me.Dito ako masaya.

I started to be a lesbian when I was in 9th grade.I was 15 years old back then.Hindi ko alam pero namalayan ko nalang ang sarili ko na nagbabago.Tumatak sa isip ko na ayoko nang magmahal ng isang lalaki.They'll just hurt me again.At dahil sa takot kong masaktan ulit,I changed myself into a new person.I did it to protect myself.

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Pinagmasdan ko ang philosophy teacher namin habang nagsusulat siya ng mga terms sa white board.Nakatunganga lang ako habang pinaglalaruan ang ballpen ko using my right hand habang kinakamot ko yung noo ko with my left hand.Lumingon ako sa paligid.Ofcourse busy na naman ang mga classmates ko na mag take down notes. They're always like that.Madalas kasing magsurprise test 'tong si Sir Argon.

I let out a sigh and was about to write something on my notebook when the room door suddenly opened. Umalingawngaw ang tunog ng pagbukas ng pintuan in the four corners of the room,breaking the calmness of the atmosphere.Napatingin kaming lahat sa pinto, maging si Sir Argon ay nakuha din ang atensyon.

"Mr. Farell." Sir Argon said with a hint of disappointment."You're late.Again."

Mula sa pintuan ay naglakad ang isang matangkad na lalaki.He has this piercing brown eyes that whoever looks into them would totally drown and melt on the spot.Tinatakpan ng messy jet black hair nito ang kanyang noo.He has a black round earing on his left ear,making him look playfully mischievous and dangerous.Nakapamulsa siyang naglakad na para bang naglalakad lang sa park while wearing his signatured poker face look.He's in his plain black v-neck shirt,jeans and black converse shoes while wearing a black expensive watch on his left wrist.Nakasablay naman ang bag niya sa kanang balikat niya.Diretso lang ito papunta sa armchair niya which is exactly yung armchair sa harap ko.

Ano pa nga bang aasahan namin kay Red Farell.He's a man of disaster.

The class was so quiet and only his footsteps can be heard all over the room.Nang malapit na siya,nagulat ako nang magtama ang tingin namin.Walang nagbago sa itsura niya.It was like he's staring at a worthless thing.Ako ang unang umiwas ng tingin at nagfocus sa notebook ko kahit na wala naman akong sinusulat.

Problema nito?

Nang makaupo na siya sa harap ko ay pasimple ko siyang pinagmasdan.I heard Sir Argon's deep sigh.

"Why are you late again Mr. Farell?"

"None of your business." The man sitting at my front coldly said.Napasinghap ang iba sa mga kaklase ko.Napailing nalang ako.What would we expect?He's always like that.

"You are under my class so I have the right to ask you Farell." there's a warning on sir Argon's voice

"Does it would make sense if I'll tell you or not?I'm already late.It wouldn't change that.So just deal with it." Red answered in a monotonous tone.Para bang wala lang yung sinabe niya.Parang hindi teacher yung kausap at kaharap niya.