Put On A Brave Face (A Dance Moms FanFic)

Chapter 6: Mackenzie's POV

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Chapter 6: Mackenzie's POV

I sigh as I watch Maddie lye deathly still. A tear slowly made it's way down my splotchy red face and annoyance filled inside me.

What is happening to my sister? No one is telling me ANYTHING and it really annoys me, not even my own mother.  Why does it have to be Maddie, why not me? Even if the show portrayed me as Maddie's shadow, I love her. With all my heart.

I reach towards my hot chocolate cup and chug the rest of it down as my mind swirled with my many thoughts. I hear hushed whispers coming from outside of the room and I poke my head out to see Chloe and Kendall with serious faces on.

I hear a couple of words that don't mean a thing but I freeze when Chloe says the word leukaemia. Leukaemia. I've heard that word before. It was two weeks or so ago at school but stupid me, I didn't listen.

I slowly made my way to my second class, science. I entered the door and realised the class had already started! The teacher gave me a dirty look but motioned me to sit down.

I sat down at the back (my usual seat) and felt my face burn bright red with embarrassment. People's stares bore into me and I tried to hide my face with my jacket but failed terribly and instead dropped it on the floor. The metal zipper made a loud clank and once again everyone's attention was on me.

The teacher ignored me and continued on with the lesson. I decided to try and pay attention to the teacher and try not to bring the attention onto me. The word 'leukaemia' was scrawled across the board in messy handwriting and I instantly tuned out, predicting today's lesson wouldn't be important.

Ugh! What's wrong with me?! Why didn't I listen! I ran down the hallway to bump into my mum.

"What are you doing, Kenz?" she questioned suspiciously.

"I was, umm..." I stuttered, racking my brain for an excuse. "I was trying to find the bathroom. I was thinking of going to school today." I said quickly.

Oh no! Why did I say that?! I really don't want to go to school. The truth is that I hate school and I get bullied. That's why I'm so close to Maddie. I told her everything and she helped me get through it, most days.

"OK, let's go back to see Madz one last time. Than you can go to school." she replied.

"Mmmk" I muttered.

I slowly walk back to the room and visit Maddie one last time before I have to go to the dreaded place. I hold her hand and say "I love you Maddie, wish me luck" and I leave.

                                                                 *LUNCH AT SCHOOL*

I slide down my locker and sit on the cold tiles. I finally figure out what leukaemia was. It is a type of cancer. My thoughts stopped as a shadow loomed over me. I recognised the smell of her signature perfume fill the air. I instantly shrink down and clutch my knees to my chest.

"Ewww!" she shrieks. I slowly lift my head to see her. Lacy Thirwall. The mean girl. She flails her hand at me and shrieks again. "Ewwww, get that thing away from me! I don't want the nerd near me!"

A tear slides down my cheek as she continues to insult me with rude comments but one infuriated me the most. "Hey, everyone!" she shouted. Everyone's head whipped around to Lacy and her clique. "Did you hear about this things sister?" she said pointing to me.

"What did you say?" I squeaked.

"Firstly, don't talk to me and secondly, I was talking about your sister." she said, glaring down at me.

"Ok, as I was saying. This things sister was just diagnosed with some sickness. So everyone stay away from her and her sister or you might catch it." she announced.

I felt a pang of hurt hit my chest and a I swallowed a lump in my throat. I bolt up and zoom towards the doors but not quick enough to hear some other people rude comments. I turned around when I reached the doors to see a gang of people surrounding Lacy. Nia steps towards her, curls her fists in a ball and punches her right in the jaw.

Then I run. I run all the way home and straight to my mums bathroom. I slam the door closed behind me and lock it. I hear mums bedroom door open and knock on the door.

"Kenz, what are you doing?" she asked worriedly.

I flush the toilet as a distraction and I hear her heave a sigh of relief and her descending footsteps. I open the cupboard doors and rummage through the things until I find a razor.

I slowly cut my wrist three times in a row and sigh in relief. The blood trickles down my arm and I turn on the tap and watch as the blood washes down the drain. I slide my sleeve down lower and open the door.

I quickly tip-toe all the way to my room and lock myself inside. I sigh and flop onto my bed.

"Kenz, time to eat!" my mum yells from down stairs.

I snatch up some bracelets on my bed side table and slip them on, covering the fresh cuts. I open the door and stride down the stairs.

"Just get something out of the fridge and heat it up for us all. Oh, not us all  but..." My mum staggers, tears threatening to spill out of her eyes.

"No, I get what you mean" I say quietly.

Later that night, I lay in bed my heart heavy with sadness. After what semed like forever, I fell into an uneasy sleep.