My new life...
I already told to myself that I need to move forward..Let go of all the memories that give me sleepless night memory that I know will never be mine again.,
As I listening to one of my favorite song, I read a comment that slap me into reality,the notes says: "you hurt because you love the most". A love that will bring you sorrow, hatred and pain..
I dont know why I keep holding on inspite of what you've done and what we've become..Our relationship that won't last to what I've expected..I consider you my first my last and my everything..But.you've changed you left me hanging..Some good things are just never meant to last forever.
It's been a month now,we said goodbye to each other for the second time around.But those goodbye welcome me to emptiness goodbye that shattered my heart into pieces..But for you those goodbye take the knife from your chest and welcome your new love..How could you do this to me?How could you be so happy when I was so dead?
Funny everytime Im missing you I could help myself to put down my thoughts into a note.Maybe because in this way I still have our memory until time take it place for it to fade...
My day started with the thoughts of you.Actually I dreamed of you last night,a dream that goes to a nightmare..And I just find myself staring blankly at the ceiling,my heart beating fast.I can't say a word I want to scream when I realize what's my dream all about..
(Im in your house,,then someone tell me to enter into your room.so,I did then Viola!!I saw you together.)
And it's time for me to wake up.And found out Im having a nightmare..
I don't know what that dreams all about..but,one things for sure your not mine anymore and I need to accept that one day somewhere down the roads are paths are going to cross with your new girlfriend..I can't stand it..Not this time please?
I letting go of you now my love..You know I tried hard to have you in my arms again but you won't let me.
Im sorry for loving you...And I promise you it will never fade...Hangga't kaya kong ingatan yung pagmamahal ko sayo iingatan ko,kasi ikaw ang una at gusto ko ikaw ang huli..
GOODBYE NIGHTMARE...THANK YOU FOR THE MEMORIES THAT I ONCE CALLED HAPPINESS...
how I wish you found someone who's willing to love you for what you are and embrace all your weakness..
For me,I know someday,someone gonna accept the girl you've left behind.
Someday,someone gonna love me more than the love I gave to you..
Someday somehow I know we're gonna meet again I hope it already heals all the wound when it happen so, I gonna learn to welcome you again into my life as we where before my FRIEND.
