*Jacks p.o.v for the whole story*
I sit in silence, the only sound is my pencil moving across the school worksheets. A couple of minutes, feel like hours now. The silence is broken by a ringing coming from across the room. My phone buzzing intreages me, so I quickly walk over to my desk. I pick up the phone, Finn is calling. He's been gone for many months, he went on a vacation.
"Hey, what's up," I asked curiously, waiting for his sweet voice to answer back. I just wish he was here, I've been longing for his presence.
"I just wanted to talk, I'm coming home tomorrow so maybe we can hang out," his voice through the phone sounds much higher, but still soothing me. My heart flutters in delight for my lover will be here soon.
"Of course, I miss you so much I can't wait till you get here. We should go out to the park," I announce, holding back my excitement for tomorrow. I grin happily, and giggle a bit.
"Sounds good, a picnic at the park it is. I can't wait to see you Jack," he spoke quietly through the wires that separate us from holding eachother. He was in the hotel room with his parents, they haven't figured out about our forbidden love.
"I miss you more, goodbye Finn. My step mom just got home," I replied not wanting to stop the conversation. Wishing I could talk to him for a million years, I want him here right next to me with my hand in his. My mom walks in the room as Finn sneaks in the last whispered goodbye.
It's hard to put down the phone, I just can't get enough of him. I get back to my school work. I need tomorrow to come faster, much faster. 'It's really late' I assumed, I pick up my phone and sure enough it's 10:00.
I lay down in my bed and grab my phone. It's a text from Finn, ordering me to sneak outside. I can't wait any longer to see him so I do. I quietly tip-toe to the door I see him waiting. He looks so perfect!
I run, faster than I've ever run before. I land in his arms tears strolling down my cheeks. No more wires or distance between us. Now nothing but clothes hold us from eachother. The smell of soft cologne tickles my nose.
He holds me tight against himself, the moon is the only light giving us the ability to see eachother. I run my hands through his soft, dark brown hair. He absolutely hates it when I do that, but at this point I don't care. I slowly pull away from him, so I can hear his voice.
A smirk ties in the corner of my mouth as I whisper in the cool night air "I...I've missed you.." I smile at Finn while he stares down at me. I've waited for this.
"I've missed you more Jack," he winks at me and grins from ear to ear. His teeth are perfect, His eyes are perfect, his dimples are perfect. His voice is perfect. Everything about him is....just perfect.
"Why ....." Finn cuts me off by pressing his pointer finger against my lips. His eyes sparkle in the moonlight as he study's my face stopping at my eyes.
He gets so close to me I can barely breathe anymore. At last, his lips press against mine. I wrap my arms around his neck and continue to run my hands through his hair. I jump up into his arms and he holds me. Still kissing, I take his hand in mine and hold it closely, I don't want this to end.
We finally separate from eachother, after what feels like hours. I don't let go of his hand, but he does let me back on the ground. My arm falls softly to my side and I hug him one last time. I walk up to my steps and glance back, Finn turns around, too. I wink at him, resisting the urge to run up to him and jump into his arms once more.
It's 10:37 so I have to go to bed. Of course I dream about me and Finn. I think about all the good times with him, we barely ever get in fights. After a while of thinking of him, I fall into a deep slumber.
I wake up to my step mom, Jana yelling "Jack time for school!" I wait until I actually have to get up then I get dressed for school. I go down to the kitchen to have my usual Reeces Puffs for breakfast. I smile at the thought of the park, today is gonna be great I thought to myself.
I arrive at school and Sofia already teases me about last night. I didn't tell her, so Finn must have. She's not against us, she's just trying to emberrass me. I laugh and let her in on some details. Her and Millie are the only ones that know.
It's time to head to class and luckily me and Sofia have the same First Period. On the way to English I spot Finn, so I smile. He looks back, I get lost in his gaze. I'm losing simple communication with reality. Suprisingly, when I come back I'm on the floor sorounded by text books and papers thrown to the ground.
GREAT! I must've fallen I thought. Sofia and Millie laugh and giggle they start to help me with my books and papers. Then, of course the bell rings and I'm late to class.
I enter the class and everyone's faces are a bright tone of red. Do they know something? The silence is broken with the teachers rigid words.
"And why were you late Mr. Grazer," her voice proper and alone, cutting deep into the silence that was there a moment before. A nervous smile comes about on my face, my cheeks steaming hot. I try not to look, too nervous. Do they know about me and Finn?! They can't find out.
"I....they... umm. I..kind..of sort of....errmm...I fell," my shaky voice fills the room. My face is pink and everyone is staring at me. I try to ease the mental pain with a little nervous laughter, but that made it even worse.
"Oh, and why might that be, is it because of a silly crush or something much more," her voice feels like it's now cutting deep into my skin. I can feel my face burn, it's a brighter shade of red. They can't know!
My voice is a higher pitch while I snap back "NO, just leave my love life alone...please. Can we just start class?" She never answered my question, but she does smile and turn to the board. She got what she wanted, a student like me to be embarrassed. Throughout the class giggles and chuckles stack up. Enough to where the teacher and I can both hear them. She never shushed them she let them be.
The rest of the class goes slowly, along with the whole day. Finn and I have the same lunch period. When it's time to eat, I try to find Finns face amongst all the others.
It's not there, maybe he went home sick. I have no other friends in this lunch period. As usual, I sit in the corner alone. Ive had to do this many weeks before, because Finn was on vacation a lot. Don't tell me he's gone again, I didn't even get to be with him for an hour alone.
My tears are hot against my freckled cheeks. I can't ever wait that long for him again. My heart skips at least 2 beats. I try not to show my face to other people around me. I pull my sleeves up and faded scars along with bold ones mix on my wrists. Dried blood, stained my pale skin. It ruins me to be alone, sure I have my friends but when Finn isn't here it makes me think, a lot.
I think about how maybe he's just pretending to love me, because he doesn't want to hurt his best friend. I would never know for sure. I sometimes think about when he goes for month long vacations that he found someone else and I'm not worth it anymore. These thoughts are what lead to my deep scars.
I wipe my tears off my cheeks and continue to eat my food. Soon enough it was time for the 4th period. After that class I call Finn.
"Hey, I went home early," he tells me with reassurance. My hand is a bit shaky, people around me glance over every once and a while. "I'm just..I wanted to go home. Don't worry it's not bad and our plans are still on," he told me sounding serious; however, I don't know if I truly believe him.
"Oh, okay I was just worried. I have to go to class....bye," my voice is nervous as I quickly hang up . For some reason I was mad at him. I don't want to be mad, I love him so much. I gather my stuff from my locker and walk to my next class. I barely pay attention, I can't stop thinking about him.
My teacher snaps at me to get to work multiple times. The problem is, I don't know what we're doing. So, I just scribble random information down. I can't help but pitty my anger towards Finn.
The class finally ends after what feels like years. I call Jana and tell her I'm just going to the park after school. She doesn't care and let's me go.
